Monday, October 30, 2006

Various Tidbits

I’m not sure where I’m going with this exactly… this morning I got up, early!, and was in such a good mood!! (Even for a Monday!! I wasn’t even dreading today!!) I had extra time so I gave the kitties a little extra love and then headed off to work… I guess before I go much farther I should mention that work got broken into this weekend…. someone (it had to be an employee- they had to know where we kept the petty cash) broke out the glass in the front door and stole one concrete drill & the petty cash (about $400) and then left… my boss called Saturday to tell me what had happened and to ask me a few questions about the petty cash and the checkbook… this morning my co-worker (yes, the dreaded one) came in here to tell me the “big” story about this weekend and I said, yeah, that’s what I heard, t called me on Saturday and told me… his reply, oh, he called you? Um, yeah, didn’t I just say that?! Ok, so apparently that pissed him off and he continued to make rude ugly comments to me… I’m pms-ing and am very sensitive and he had me in tears… I did not let him know that because he is trying to get under my skin (that makes him feel so much better!!)…. (I know, childish)… my mood turned foul very quick and I’m working on getting out of the funk… for the most part, I’m out of it… I’m trying not to think about it because it still irritates me… I know that I am the only one who can let him bother me and I am working really hard on not letting him bother me… I can’t help it if he is unhappy with his life and the decisions he made and is taking it out on me… what really pisses me off though is the way he talks about what a good Christian person he is… his words and his actions don’t match up! I know that mine don’t either all the time but I don’t walk around acting like I’m holier than every one else… ok, my rant about him is over now…. Just let it go… (I would really like to do some yoga tonight but I’m not sure about the wrist… maybe if I wear my splint…) … keep thinking: he can’t get to me if I don’t let him….

I have come to a few realizations over the past several days…
1) I really am happy with my life right now… I am happy with the progress that I’ve made working on my attitude… getting rid of all the negative ugly things that constantly plagued my thoughts, feelings, and life…
2) I am happy with the restaurant (and very proud at the same time)… I’m so proud of r too… he is doing such a dang good job!! I only hope that as time goes on (hopefully sooner than later) he will be able to de-stress and enjoy everything that we have accomplished...
3) I am not “lacking” anything in my life… Friday I was looking thru this week in pictures and realized that what I consider the “basics” of my life are not really the “basics”… cell phone (or even a phone), cable/dish, massages, eating out, getting my hair done, things like this are not required for me to survive… I think they are but they’re really not… I sit here and blog about how we were put in a bind because of our ex-waitress but in all reality, I need to change the way I look at things…

3 comments:

kilax said...

At my university there are quite a few student groups that are what I call "religious cults." They claim to be looking out for the good of mankind and doing community-service projects, but all of the people I have meet in these groups are judgmental, pushy and mean. And it is hard not to let it get to you! I think you have the right attitude though :)

courtneym said...

that is too funny that you used the term "religious cults"... i use that term to describe one HUGE church in my town... my brother got "involved" with them in high school and became exactly what you described: judgemental, pushy, and mean... he told me i was going to hell for having my ears pierced (especially more than once) along with various other things... i guess they forgot to tell him not to judge... this is probably where this whole issue stems from.. luckily, he got away before it was too late though... hehe
Thank you!! :D

kilax said...

I am happy your brother escaped! ;)