So the move is over with… we took the last load and turned the keys into the apartment office on Sunday. I can’t even begin to explain how nice it was last night after work to just go home. No moving anything from place to place, no having to leave after we get done working to go back to the apartment and go to bed… just going home from work and putting things up. Last night we got the living room set up, tonight we’re working on the bedrooms.
The kitties are doing well in the new place. I think they’ve smelled every square inch of the house, every closet, everything. They spent all Saturday night exploring. We let them outside in the backyard Sunday and then again last night after work. Murphy does really good; if he starts to wander off you can call his name and he’ll stop, turn around, and look at you. Mazzy on the other hand always has to push the boundaries… last night she jumped thru the gate and took off down the drive-way. I yelled her name and I’m pretty sure she started running faster. A car drove by, scared her, and she stopped running. I went to get her and she hid under dc’s truck. I finally ended up half dragging her out cause she wasn’t coming out on her own! She clawed and hissed the whole time. The t-shirt I had on has holes in it and my left arm looks like I got in a knife fight (and lost horribly). Needless to say, she ended up back inside after that little escapade. Murphy on the other hand just hung around outside; he laid on a concrete slab in the yard soaking up the sun, wandered around eating grass, enjoying being outside. Too bad his sister couldn’t act the same way.
dc’s sister is having a garage sale Saturday so we are in the process of going thru everything that we moved over and deciding what to keep and what to sell… man alive we have a lot of junk!!! I’m just hoping that the majority of it sells!!!
Ever since the move in December 2007 I’ve changed my address every 6 to 9 months, so I’m really hoping that this is the end of my nomadic journey for a while…
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
Feeling It
I am feeling the stress… the stress of remodeling the whole house in about 2 months and the stress of moving… for me moving is stressful enough… add in the remodeling and I’m out of control!! Last night dc called me his "little stress ball" and that fits perfectly. This past week I’ve felt like I’ve been just having a constant panic attack. Everyone says, don’t worry, don’t stress, you’re ahead of schedule. That’s great that everyone else feels that way but when you’ve got your stuff strung out between a house and an apartment and the house is almost done but not quite I’m going to be stressed. I also feel bad, and more stressed, because the kitties are feeling my stress and are stressing themselves. They know something’s going on because dc and I have been moving stuff out all week long. I wish the kitties understood when I tell them, don’t worry, you’re going too, just not yet!! Poor Mazzy has been all over me when I’m at home, like, hey, what are you doing, don’t forget about me, I’m still here!!! Murphy has spent most of his time under the couch or staring out on to the balcony.
The apartment is pretty much empty now except for the big stuff, you know, the washer & dryer, couch, tv, bed, dresser, and chest of drawers. We are supposed to be moving that stuff this weekend so hopefully the weather will cooperate. We had a cold front blow in and have a chance of snow today and tonight. If I wasn’t trying to move I wouldn’t mind at all but I’m not really looking forward to the weather being nasty (side note, it’s been in the 70’s lately and of course the weekend we are supposed to move stuff with the trailer the weather is not cooperating). I’m really hoping that getting moved will take the stress level down about 100 notches for me. I’ve already decided that I’m going to schedule a massage after the move is over. I was going to wait and schedule it after we got the kitchen finished but I don’t know if I can wait that long. Something has to give soon because I don’t like this all stressed out me… the always angry, irritated, or way upset me.
The apartment is pretty much empty now except for the big stuff, you know, the washer & dryer, couch, tv, bed, dresser, and chest of drawers. We are supposed to be moving that stuff this weekend so hopefully the weather will cooperate. We had a cold front blow in and have a chance of snow today and tonight. If I wasn’t trying to move I wouldn’t mind at all but I’m not really looking forward to the weather being nasty (side note, it’s been in the 70’s lately and of course the weekend we are supposed to move stuff with the trailer the weather is not cooperating). I’m really hoping that getting moved will take the stress level down about 100 notches for me. I’ve already decided that I’m going to schedule a massage after the move is over. I was going to wait and schedule it after we got the kitchen finished but I don’t know if I can wait that long. Something has to give soon because I don’t like this all stressed out me… the always angry, irritated, or way upset me.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
More Work...
So dc and I have been working on the house non-stop pretty much and I must say it’s looking very good!! I’m really proud of what we’ve done so far!!! We “officially” started moving last night after work, we took two loads of stuff over… technically we don’t have to be out of the apartment until Tuesday so we’ve still got a week but I’m ready for the move to be over and done with. We can’t really do anything else, except demo, on the house until the kitchen cabinets come in. We ordered them last Wednesday and they said it should take 2 – 3 weeks for them to come in. The kitchen is all we have left to do. The carpet was installed in the 2 bedrooms on Friday and we finished the bathroom over the weekend… well, finished except for re-finishing the bathtub but we are going to tackle that one night this week.
The Bathroom- Before:
The Bathroom- After:
Our Bedroom & Closet:
Guestbedroom:
The Bathroom- Before:
The Bathroom- After:
Our Bedroom & Closet:
Guestbedroom:
Friday, March 13, 2009
Hindsight
You know what pisses me off more than anything… well, maybe not more than anything but right now it’s my more than anything… when someone can’t take care of something that is going to affect someone else… and it’s something so simple that one little phone call could take care of the whole situation… unfortunately it’s not something I can take care of though… believe me, I’ve tried calling, letters, faxes, but I don’t have the “authority” to remove myself… that doesn’t make a whole lot of sense to me but whatever… but then, the situation gets even better shall we say… the person doesn’t understand why what happened between you two happened… it couldn’t have anything to do with the fact that you “took care” of everything else like you took care of this situation… you put absolutely no effort into anything and just hoped someone else would take care of it for you… your relationships, your work/business, everything… that’s how you approach life… to me that’s sad that you don’t even care enough about yourself to try to take care of your own life... you try to act dumb (or whatever excuse you are using now) but it all boils down to being lazy and not wanting to do anything that would require you to take any action whatsoever until you have no choice but to take action… let’s rely on everyone else but the person best suited to take care of your life… I only wish I would have seen all of this sooner but they say hindsight is 20/20…
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Bits and Pieces
dc and I are working on the rent house we are moving in to when my lease is up in March, if not before, depending on how long we can tolerate the people who moved in below us- and the only moved in yesterday but they are quite noisy!!! The rent house is coming along good… so far we’ve changed out all the plugs, switches, and covers… they are all nice, new, white, and they all match now!!! dc changed out all the doorknobs so those all match too… we’re almost done painting, all I have left to do is 2 closets, the trim in the 2 bedrooms, hall, and living room, and 4 doors… then we’re onto more major projects… we’re putting in an awesome closet system… we’re also in the process of demoing the bathroom… the only thing staying in the bathroom is the bathtub and the tile he just put up around the bathtub… we’re putting in a new light fixture, pedestal sink, toilet, mirror, and medicine cabinet… the bathroom is really dated so this will help a lot!!! lastly, the kitchen is going to be completely gutted and redone… I’m not sure if we’ll have time to do that before we move in but it is going to have to happen… we’re taking out one pantry (there are currently 2) and putting the fridge in that area, adding more counter space, changing the layout, putting in new cabinets, lights, and floor, tearing down part of a wall to make a bar area (not like a wet bar just a regular ‘ol bar), adding a dishwasher- there is currently no dishwasher and that stresses me- I’ve always had a dishwasher!!!- and changing out the stove/oven that’s in there for one with a microwave/stove/oven combination… oh yeah, there is no microwave currently and I honestly don’t think we have room for one… the kitchen is a really good size but the way it’s set up right now it isn’t very functional (kinda like the bathroom)… like I said, it’s going very well and pretty fast so far and once we get all the smaller projects done we can really focus on working together on the big projects… I love home improvements and it’s really nice when you’re working with someone else who helps out and likes doing them too, not someone who just wants to sit on the couch and have you and your parents do it… we’re having a lot of fun and learning stuff in the process!!! I so kept asking dc to remind me to take before and after pictures but of course I failed to take before pictures… I suppose I could still take them although you wouldn’t get to see all of the ugliness that we’ve fixed so far, lol…
um, Valentine’s was really good… we cooked dinner for his parents, my parents, and his aunt and uncle… everyone already knows everyone (thru church) so that took a lot of the pressure off of the situation… we cooked brisket, cheddar stuffed bacon wrapped jalapenos, potato salad, bread, and sopapilla cheesecake… it was so yummy!!!!
We’ve been working on the rent house every chance we get… and we’ve got our February dinner party coming up on the 28th which I am really looking forward to... I suppose that’s about all the excitement in my life lately which is fine by me, I'll take that!!
um, Valentine’s was really good… we cooked dinner for his parents, my parents, and his aunt and uncle… everyone already knows everyone (thru church) so that took a lot of the pressure off of the situation… we cooked brisket, cheddar stuffed bacon wrapped jalapenos, potato salad, bread, and sopapilla cheesecake… it was so yummy!!!!
We’ve been working on the rent house every chance we get… and we’ve got our February dinner party coming up on the 28th which I am really looking forward to... I suppose that’s about all the excitement in my life lately which is fine by me, I'll take that!!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Happy Valentine's Day!
Love is not finding someone to live with, It's finding someone you can't live without.
- Rafael Ortiz
You may conquer with the sword, but you are conquered by a kiss.
- Daniel Heinsius
Friday, February 13, 2009
Self-Love Day
Ok, today (well, actually tomorrow since it’s Valentine’s) has been declared Self-Love Day (thank you Ilax and Hilly)!! So, I decided to participate this year…The Rules:
1.) Post a banner on your blog and declare February 14th as the day you not only love your one and only, but the day that you love yourself!
2.) Post one nice thing about yourself……then ask others to post one thing that they really like about you.
3.) Enjoy yourself!
So I decided to participate now I’m having some trouble coming up with one nice thing to post about myself. Let’s see… I love that I am working hard to become the person that I want to be, that I’m learning to relax (about a lot of things!), that I’m no longer scared to stay “stuck in a rut” if something’s not working and am willing to try something new; I love that I discovered that being happy is something that everyone deserves and that I will take the steps I need to take to make myself happy!!!
I suppose all that came from everything that’s been going on for the past year… I’m learning a lot about myself and I’m really learning how to be happy. It’s amazing how much better life is when you’re happy!!
On a side note- I don’t want anyone to feel pressured to say something nice about me, I feel weird “asking”…
Thursday, February 05, 2009
Deep Breaths
Hopefully you can’t just feel the ugh coming out in this post… today has been one of those days when everyone just manages to crawl all over your last nerve!!!! I think that all the idiots of the world are in town today and are either calling or coming by to bother me… it’s just one of those days…
I took my car in today at lunch… the air bag light is still on (from since oh, November-ish) and the part they were supposed to order in December never got ordered and no notes were mad as to what the problem was… so they asked me to bring it in again to have it re-tested… I know, it’s not like I’ve just been on them about the problem either… I’ve been procrastinating… I have no idea why it’s such an “ordeal” for me to take my car to the shop, it’s not like I have to do anything but take it in and drop it off.
More “good” news… I found out yesterday that if someone isn’t paying their taxes, like payroll, unemployment, sales, or whatever (if they own a business) and your name is on the taxes somewhere that can go on your credit and affect your credit… which brings me to…. The ex hasn’t been paying any of the taxes for the restaurant since I quit taking care of them (figuring and paying them)…. The restaurant is a sole- proprietorship but my name was on the unemployment tax so I’m not really sure if it’s anywhere else… luckily km’s sister is taking care of the tax situation for me… he’s also not paying on his part of the debt from the divorce and the company doesn’t honor divorce decrees so even though it’s his debt per the decree since we both signed the loan papers and he hasn’t refinanced it it’s still going against me… I can only hope he’s still making the house payment since the mortgage company doesn’t honor divorce decrees either… normally I try not to be a “number dropper” but in this case I’m going to be… my credit score at the beginning of September was an 816… a freaking 816!!! Pretty damn good if I do say so myself!!!! I don’t even want to know what it is now as I am constantly getting letters “reminding” me of the payment that is past due… I just need to keep reminding myself that even though my credit may suck (cheese) balls I am much happier now and I can deal with this, I will take bad credit over happiness in this situation… (I think this is going to be my new mantra)… ok, enough of the bad and negative…
Um, positive and good… positive and good… we still haven’t been to the gym, lol!!! (ok, maybe that’s not good- I was just joking!)… Saturday I get to go to a birthday party for jw’s twins who are turning 6!! I can’t believe they are already going to be 6- I remember when she was pregnant with them!!!! (mental note- charge the camera battery) so as of now I think the plan for Saturday is dc is going to work for a while, I’m going to go to the birthday party, and then we are going to find something to do to enjoy the weather!! The weather this weekend is supposed to be in the 70’s! YAY!!! Another positive- in a little over a month time changes and that is all kinds of goodness in itself!!! That means warmer weather is on the way and it will start staying light later!!! Plus, golf season is right around the corner AND I get to use my pretty pink balls with my initials on them!!!! Ok, I’m feeling better now!!! Much more positive!!! I should have blogged earlier and got all the negativity and ick out here sooner!!! I just hope the nasty doesn’t stick on you my fellow bloggers!!!
I took my car in today at lunch… the air bag light is still on (from since oh, November-ish) and the part they were supposed to order in December never got ordered and no notes were mad as to what the problem was… so they asked me to bring it in again to have it re-tested… I know, it’s not like I’ve just been on them about the problem either… I’ve been procrastinating… I have no idea why it’s such an “ordeal” for me to take my car to the shop, it’s not like I have to do anything but take it in and drop it off.
More “good” news… I found out yesterday that if someone isn’t paying their taxes, like payroll, unemployment, sales, or whatever (if they own a business) and your name is on the taxes somewhere that can go on your credit and affect your credit… which brings me to…. The ex hasn’t been paying any of the taxes for the restaurant since I quit taking care of them (figuring and paying them)…. The restaurant is a sole- proprietorship but my name was on the unemployment tax so I’m not really sure if it’s anywhere else… luckily km’s sister is taking care of the tax situation for me… he’s also not paying on his part of the debt from the divorce and the company doesn’t honor divorce decrees so even though it’s his debt per the decree since we both signed the loan papers and he hasn’t refinanced it it’s still going against me… I can only hope he’s still making the house payment since the mortgage company doesn’t honor divorce decrees either… normally I try not to be a “number dropper” but in this case I’m going to be… my credit score at the beginning of September was an 816… a freaking 816!!! Pretty damn good if I do say so myself!!!! I don’t even want to know what it is now as I am constantly getting letters “reminding” me of the payment that is past due… I just need to keep reminding myself that even though my credit may suck (cheese) balls I am much happier now and I can deal with this, I will take bad credit over happiness in this situation… (I think this is going to be my new mantra)… ok, enough of the bad and negative…
Um, positive and good… positive and good… we still haven’t been to the gym, lol!!! (ok, maybe that’s not good- I was just joking!)… Saturday I get to go to a birthday party for jw’s twins who are turning 6!! I can’t believe they are already going to be 6- I remember when she was pregnant with them!!!! (mental note- charge the camera battery) so as of now I think the plan for Saturday is dc is going to work for a while, I’m going to go to the birthday party, and then we are going to find something to do to enjoy the weather!! The weather this weekend is supposed to be in the 70’s! YAY!!! Another positive- in a little over a month time changes and that is all kinds of goodness in itself!!! That means warmer weather is on the way and it will start staying light later!!! Plus, golf season is right around the corner AND I get to use my pretty pink balls with my initials on them!!!! Ok, I’m feeling better now!!! Much more positive!!! I should have blogged earlier and got all the negativity and ick out here sooner!!! I just hope the nasty doesn’t stick on you my fellow bloggers!!!
Monday, February 02, 2009
1 Month Down...
I really can’t believe it’s already February… one month of the new year is already over… I almost feel like I’ve had bloggers block lately… I’ve had a list of stuff to blog about but it doesn’t seem very interesting… then again, are any of my posts just really that interesting, lol?!?! ok, so what’s been going on… um, in January I had jury duty, although that seems like an eon ago now… it was ok… I’d only heard horror stories about jury duty but it wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be… (maybe it’s been long enough that it doesn’t seem that bad now)… I learned a lot about the court system and how people can get away with stuff- let me clarify that… the defense attorney objected to everything- he was trying to get the case thrown out on a technicality and I can see how that happens… anyways, it was a learning experience…
I saw my first 3D movie… dc and I went to see My Bloody Valentine in 3D and it was awesome!!!! not only is 3D super cool but the movie was really good!!! it was a good scary movie, not cheesy like some of them are… I highly recommend it!!
Lately dc and I have been joking about getting old… you know, things like, you know you’re getting old when… two of our “getting old” signs… we went to a dinner party in January and had a blast… a group of my friends from junior high (we’re all still friends) decided to have a monthly dinner party… there are 5 of us and each month one of us will host it at our house… I’m not sure what we’re going to do when it’s our turn since the apartment and the rent house are not big enough for 10 people but we’ll figure something out… maybe someone will “loan” us their house… anyways, we had a blast!!!! The dinner party was so much fun, I absolutely can’t wait until the next one!!! (as of right now I’m not sure if dc will be able to go to the February one- he may be moving his stuff back from Corpus that day- which I’m not happy about but at least that will be taken care of!)… and our second “getting old” sign… we started making cheese… he got me hooked on fresh mozzarella cheese, it is so good!!! we’ve tried to buy it at the store but it is kinda expensive so we were researching how to make it and found a cheese kit… we bought the kit and Friday night we made our first batch of cheese!!! The directions said if your first batch doesn’t turn out good don’t get discouraged but we were really impressed!!! The cheese was good!!! so now we are cheese artisans!!! We were hanging out with his sister and her boyfriend yesterday, along with some golf friends, and they were making fun of us for being cheese artisans… it’s ok, they’re just jealous, not everyone is cool enough to make cheese…
One final note I suppose… we really need to get back to the gym… bad… I wore a pair of shorts Saturday and they didn’t fit near as good as they did about a month ago…. Not good…
I saw my first 3D movie… dc and I went to see My Bloody Valentine in 3D and it was awesome!!!! not only is 3D super cool but the movie was really good!!! it was a good scary movie, not cheesy like some of them are… I highly recommend it!!
Lately dc and I have been joking about getting old… you know, things like, you know you’re getting old when… two of our “getting old” signs… we went to a dinner party in January and had a blast… a group of my friends from junior high (we’re all still friends) decided to have a monthly dinner party… there are 5 of us and each month one of us will host it at our house… I’m not sure what we’re going to do when it’s our turn since the apartment and the rent house are not big enough for 10 people but we’ll figure something out… maybe someone will “loan” us their house… anyways, we had a blast!!!! The dinner party was so much fun, I absolutely can’t wait until the next one!!! (as of right now I’m not sure if dc will be able to go to the February one- he may be moving his stuff back from Corpus that day- which I’m not happy about but at least that will be taken care of!)… and our second “getting old” sign… we started making cheese… he got me hooked on fresh mozzarella cheese, it is so good!!! we’ve tried to buy it at the store but it is kinda expensive so we were researching how to make it and found a cheese kit… we bought the kit and Friday night we made our first batch of cheese!!! The directions said if your first batch doesn’t turn out good don’t get discouraged but we were really impressed!!! The cheese was good!!! so now we are cheese artisans!!! We were hanging out with his sister and her boyfriend yesterday, along with some golf friends, and they were making fun of us for being cheese artisans… it’s ok, they’re just jealous, not everyone is cool enough to make cheese…
One final note I suppose… we really need to get back to the gym… bad… I wore a pair of shorts Saturday and they didn’t fit near as good as they did about a month ago…. Not good…
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Happy Days!!
Happy days are here again!!! I found Murphy last night!!! The apartment complex has several big like semi- truck containers out in the back (they are redoing the apartments) and he was hiding under one of them… dc had put some food out yesterday morning and last night after work I went back to where the food bowl was at (for the 2nd time), got down on my knees to look under the container, and he stuck his head out… I thought I was going to have to drag him out but after he stuck his head out he just started creeping out really slow… normally he’s not big on being carried around but I picked him up and he just latched onto me… I cried the whole way home I was so happy!!! Mazzy on the other hand has been hissing at Murphy and I both since I brought him home… she is not a happy kitteh… poor “little” Murphy is worn out and last night he was sleeping in his bed and she walked over to him, started hissing at him and slapping his ears… he was so tired he didn’t even move but she is being mean!!! Back to her “old” self I suppose… she’s acting the way she did when we first brought him home… I know in time she’ll be ok with him being back but until then she’s just going to have to get over it… (I know, I’m such a mean momma)… Murph is covered in dust so today at lunch I’m going to buy him (and her) a new collar and make new name tags with the correct phone number on them… I’ve also got to get some kitteh shampoo or some shampoo wipes or something, I think they have those- shampoo wipes… he’s like a big dust ball!!!! You just pet him and your hand is covered in dust… I tried brushing him last night and then dc and I tried to clean him with a wet paper towel but it’s going to take more than that… I don’t care though!!! I’m just so happy he’s home!!!! I just had to share the good news!! Thank you ALL for all your positive thoughts!!!
Monday, January 19, 2009
Cat-astrophe
So this weekend I had my first major catastrophe… Murphy ran away… silly as it sounds, I guess he jumped off the balcony… my 17.5# kitty jumped off the balcony… that’s the only explanation dc and I can come up with… the last time we saw him was about 7:00 Saturday night… we’ve walked miles and searched for hours… we’ve driven around… I called the animal shelter this morning but they didn’t pick him up… I’m about to make some fliers to put up in the apartment complex and put an ad in the paper… I’m so worried about him… he’s never been outside before, not like this anyways, it was always “supervised”…
About how he “escaped”… the lady who lived there before us had put chicken wire up over the balcony slats to keep her dog from squeezing out… one corner of it had been pulled back and for the longest time I always watched Mazzy & Murphy while they were outside… they’ve only been going out on the balcony since I’ve lived there- about 7.5 months… they never did anything outside, just sat in the sun or looked out the slats… dc and I are guessing that he squeezed out of the slats and chicken wire… saying all this, he had to really work to get out…
We put food out where he jumped at, hoping that he will realize hey, this is my food, this is home… nothing yet… none of his food is gone… there are so many places that he could have gone… the possibilities are endless…. Into several neighborhoods, across the street to the golf course, under bushes or cars… like I said, we’ve searched and searched, both at night and during the day…
Mazzy on the other hand is back to her “old” (read: pre-Murphy) self… she’s happy and content now being the only kitty… I just hope she’s not the only kitty for long and that he comes home soon… I keep looking around for him, thinking I’ll see him somewhere… that he’ll just be sitting there…
I’m devastated to say the least… I can’t quit crying and I feel so helpless… Saturday night when dc and I were driving around I kept thinking, so this is what it feels like when your child runs away…. I’m hoping Murphy finds his way home or that we find him… I just want him to come back home!!! I keep thinking, did I treat him so bad that he just had to run away… is there something I could have done differently? I hope he knows that I’m searching for him endlessly and that I’m not happy that he’s gone… please send out good thoughts for Murphy… that he comes home soon!!!
About how he “escaped”… the lady who lived there before us had put chicken wire up over the balcony slats to keep her dog from squeezing out… one corner of it had been pulled back and for the longest time I always watched Mazzy & Murphy while they were outside… they’ve only been going out on the balcony since I’ve lived there- about 7.5 months… they never did anything outside, just sat in the sun or looked out the slats… dc and I are guessing that he squeezed out of the slats and chicken wire… saying all this, he had to really work to get out…
We put food out where he jumped at, hoping that he will realize hey, this is my food, this is home… nothing yet… none of his food is gone… there are so many places that he could have gone… the possibilities are endless…. Into several neighborhoods, across the street to the golf course, under bushes or cars… like I said, we’ve searched and searched, both at night and during the day…
Mazzy on the other hand is back to her “old” (read: pre-Murphy) self… she’s happy and content now being the only kitty… I just hope she’s not the only kitty for long and that he comes home soon… I keep looking around for him, thinking I’ll see him somewhere… that he’ll just be sitting there…
I’m devastated to say the least… I can’t quit crying and I feel so helpless… Saturday night when dc and I were driving around I kept thinking, so this is what it feels like when your child runs away…. I’m hoping Murphy finds his way home or that we find him… I just want him to come back home!!! I keep thinking, did I treat him so bad that he just had to run away… is there something I could have done differently? I hope he knows that I’m searching for him endlessly and that I’m not happy that he’s gone… please send out good thoughts for Murphy… that he comes home soon!!!
Friday, January 09, 2009
2009
Happy (Belated) New Years to everyone!!!! Here’s to hoping that everyone has a most excellent 2009!!!
Vacation was good and so far 2009 has been stellar!!! Over vacation dc and I went skiing in Colorado… we had a blast (gotta love credit card miles)!!
Other highlights, I found out that I got the one thing I was really wanted for Christmas, dc to move back!!! He hasn’t moved all of his stuff back yet, we’re going to go down one weekend and get it because his roommate is using it right now, but, he is back!!! YAY!!! I met all of dc’s family over the holidays and they were all really nice, not that I was expecting anything less… we got to play golf one day!!! I hit a 189 yard drive and got my first par!!! That was exciting!!! I can’t seem to find my motivation as far as exercising goes… it’s been gone and doesn’t seem to be coming back… I’m really ready for the time change and warmer weather… there is so much more to do outside… being cooped up inside the house all the time makes me not want to do anything… I had a whole ton of stuff that I was going to blog about but now that I’ve actually started blogging it has all just escaped my mind… so, with that being said I’ll post some pics of our Colorado trip... you can see the rest (actually, all) of the pics here.
dc and I at the Ore House in Vail:
Frisco: where we stayed
Me skiing:
dc skiing:
Looking up the mountain:
Looking down the ski trail (Wrangler):
And... borrowed from Post Secret....
Vacation was good and so far 2009 has been stellar!!! Over vacation dc and I went skiing in Colorado… we had a blast (gotta love credit card miles)!!
Other highlights, I found out that I got the one thing I was really wanted for Christmas, dc to move back!!! He hasn’t moved all of his stuff back yet, we’re going to go down one weekend and get it because his roommate is using it right now, but, he is back!!! YAY!!! I met all of dc’s family over the holidays and they were all really nice, not that I was expecting anything less… we got to play golf one day!!! I hit a 189 yard drive and got my first par!!! That was exciting!!! I can’t seem to find my motivation as far as exercising goes… it’s been gone and doesn’t seem to be coming back… I’m really ready for the time change and warmer weather… there is so much more to do outside… being cooped up inside the house all the time makes me not want to do anything… I had a whole ton of stuff that I was going to blog about but now that I’ve actually started blogging it has all just escaped my mind… so, with that being said I’ll post some pics of our Colorado trip... you can see the rest (actually, all) of the pics here.
dc and I at the Ore House in Vail:
Frisco: where we stayed
Me skiing:
dc skiing:
Looking up the mountain:
Looking down the ski trail (Wrangler):
And... borrowed from Post Secret....
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Merry Christmas!
May this Christmas season fill your home with joy, your heart with love, and your life with laughter.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Up... Again
Ok, so today’s a good day… this up and down emotionally is really getting to me… wearing me out… oh well, I suppose I just take the good with the bad… maybe I should say the good with the not-so-good…
Last night I went to the Y and participated in an “upbeat” water aerobics class… basically dare I say a “hip hop” class… I was worried about this for several reasons- 1) it’s been forever since I have swam, 2) um, I am so uncoordinated and I have absolutely no rhythm, 3) I had to wear a swimsuit (I ended up wearing a t-shirt over it- but hello, it was a white t-shirt and my top was black- not so smart!), 4) it was in a not-so-good part of town, and 5) I was going by myself and had absolutely no idea what to expect. Needless to say, I was all kinds of worried and stressed for no reason… there were only 4 other people there besides myself and they were all really nice… that was good… so now I am going to start going to the class on a regular basis… Tuesdays and Thursdays at 6… the guy teaching the class was really nice and said that they never have anything going on down there and I am welcome to use the indoor pool anytime, just call him and let him know and he’ll turn the heater on for me… YAY!!! So I’m thinking that while dc is gone I’ll just go swim… I can’t even begin to tell you how much I miss swimming, I love being in the water… it’s such good exercise and for me it’s very enjoyable!!! I guess you could say it’s like exercising without hating it, or exercising without really exercising, doing something fun!!! I’ve been looking for that type of exercise for a while!!!
So here’s to hoping that today will be a good day and dc and I will have another amazing weekend (since, once again, it’s his last weekend here)!!! Happy Weekend Wishes to all of you too!!!
Last night I went to the Y and participated in an “upbeat” water aerobics class… basically dare I say a “hip hop” class… I was worried about this for several reasons- 1) it’s been forever since I have swam, 2) um, I am so uncoordinated and I have absolutely no rhythm, 3) I had to wear a swimsuit (I ended up wearing a t-shirt over it- but hello, it was a white t-shirt and my top was black- not so smart!), 4) it was in a not-so-good part of town, and 5) I was going by myself and had absolutely no idea what to expect. Needless to say, I was all kinds of worried and stressed for no reason… there were only 4 other people there besides myself and they were all really nice… that was good… so now I am going to start going to the class on a regular basis… Tuesdays and Thursdays at 6… the guy teaching the class was really nice and said that they never have anything going on down there and I am welcome to use the indoor pool anytime, just call him and let him know and he’ll turn the heater on for me… YAY!!! So I’m thinking that while dc is gone I’ll just go swim… I can’t even begin to tell you how much I miss swimming, I love being in the water… it’s such good exercise and for me it’s very enjoyable!!! I guess you could say it’s like exercising without hating it, or exercising without really exercising, doing something fun!!! I’ve been looking for that type of exercise for a while!!!
So here’s to hoping that today will be a good day and dc and I will have another amazing weekend (since, once again, it’s his last weekend here)!!! Happy Weekend Wishes to all of you too!!!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Again?!?!
I’m not really sure where all of this “being so emotional” is coming from… or even why it’s here… I don’t know the answers to those questions but I do know that it’s driving me up the wall… I have been so emotional… extremely emotional…. Way too emotional…. I can’t even read some blog posts because I just bust into tears… I’m taking everything so personally…. And probably taking everything the way wrong way too… if there is any possible chance that something could be taken negatively, I will take it that way… I’m not like this all the time but I have been lately and like I said, it’s driving me crazy!!!! (Yes, my “visitor” is still here and has been for the better part of the past month… I’m pretty sure that my hormones are all crazy and that’s not helping me emotionally but I just can’t seem to make myself call the doctor. I suppose it’s just easier to gripe about it than actually do something about it.)
The holidays are usually a pretty emotional time for me but this year I am excited about them. I’m really excited about spending them with dc, who loves the holidays like I do, instead of with someone who doesn’t really care about them. For instance, this Thanksgiving was better than my past 8 have been. I wasn’t being pressured with “are you ready to go?”, “ can we leave now?”, “how long do we have to stay?”??? It was really nice to be able to relax and enjoy the time with my family.
That doesn’t help me with the way I’m feeling now though. I honestly feel like I can completely out of control, regarding my emotions anyways. Saturday dc and I were working and we had the radio on, it seems that every stupid song that came on brought tears to my eyes, and it was like all the songs were depressing too!!!! He told me last night that he’s leaving Monday and isn’t sure when he’s coming back… either Friday or Monday… of course we all know that my vote is for Friday… he said it depends on when his roommate is coming back… if he’s staying thru the weekend then dc will stay and they will work… if he’s coming back that weekend then dc will come back Friday… this really pisses me off end because his roommate is the one “helping” him to decide… I know, I know… selfish… it is very selfish of me but that’s the way I feel and I can’t help it… I really am working on and trying to be ok with all of this… with him “living” down there for about two weeks at a time but damn, he’s just killing me… getting used to him being here for a month at a time, then leaving again, just drains me… every time he leaves I feel like we’ve broken up because my life is the same as it was when he was here except he’s gone… I don’t get to go somewhere else and change up my routine…. once again, I’m being extremely selfish… I apologize for the majority of my posts being so negative and “all about dc” being gone and me being sad… I’m just really having a hard time with it and I feel bad talking about it because I know everyone gets tired of hearing it… so instead I just blog about it… it gets it out anyways…
I promise I really am trying to be positive and to stay positive but these damn emotions keep taking over and the negative just keeps on coming…
The holidays are usually a pretty emotional time for me but this year I am excited about them. I’m really excited about spending them with dc, who loves the holidays like I do, instead of with someone who doesn’t really care about them. For instance, this Thanksgiving was better than my past 8 have been. I wasn’t being pressured with “are you ready to go?”, “ can we leave now?”, “how long do we have to stay?”??? It was really nice to be able to relax and enjoy the time with my family.
That doesn’t help me with the way I’m feeling now though. I honestly feel like I can completely out of control, regarding my emotions anyways. Saturday dc and I were working and we had the radio on, it seems that every stupid song that came on brought tears to my eyes, and it was like all the songs were depressing too!!!! He told me last night that he’s leaving Monday and isn’t sure when he’s coming back… either Friday or Monday… of course we all know that my vote is for Friday… he said it depends on when his roommate is coming back… if he’s staying thru the weekend then dc will stay and they will work… if he’s coming back that weekend then dc will come back Friday… this really pisses me off end because his roommate is the one “helping” him to decide… I know, I know… selfish… it is very selfish of me but that’s the way I feel and I can’t help it… I really am working on and trying to be ok with all of this… with him “living” down there for about two weeks at a time but damn, he’s just killing me… getting used to him being here for a month at a time, then leaving again, just drains me… every time he leaves I feel like we’ve broken up because my life is the same as it was when he was here except he’s gone… I don’t get to go somewhere else and change up my routine…. once again, I’m being extremely selfish… I apologize for the majority of my posts being so negative and “all about dc” being gone and me being sad… I’m just really having a hard time with it and I feel bad talking about it because I know everyone gets tired of hearing it… so instead I just blog about it… it gets it out anyways…
I promise I really am trying to be positive and to stay positive but these damn emotions keep taking over and the negative just keeps on coming…
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
And More...
So it seems that the number of things that I am grateful for in my life just keeps growing and growing… and I’m excited and happy about this… I went and weighed today for the first Holiday Trimmings weigh in and since last Wednesday I lost 3.8lbs! This makes for a total of 15.5lbs that I’ve lost total!!! The weight loss was going much better until Thanksgiving rolled around and it took me a little while to get back on the wagon so to speak but I’m not complaining. Working out at the Y is helping and seeing the loss on the scale is also motivating!!! Tomorrow night I’m going to a different Y and going to a water aerobics and swim class!! I am so excited, I love to swim!!!! (dc is going to be out of town until about 8 so that will give me a chance to go check out another Y and see what this swim class is all about!!!)
dc announced last night that he’s not going back until Monday now… he said that he had been thinking about it and decided that he wouldn’t leave on Friday, he’d stay til Monday. very nice!!! I’m glad he’s going to be here for the weekend, the weather is supposed to be beautiful, in the 70’s, and we’re going to go golf!!! Don’t get me wrong, I’m so glad he’s going to be here for the weekend, I hate weekends without him, but in a way he’s just prolonging the inevitable. Except he did say, you never know, I may just keep delaying going back and just not go back… don’t toy with my emotions like that!!! but, he knows how I feel and I can’t be the one to make that decision, he has to be. It will all work out though, this I know.
So there are three (weight loss, swimming, and dc staying longer) more things for me to be grateful for!!!
dc announced last night that he’s not going back until Monday now… he said that he had been thinking about it and decided that he wouldn’t leave on Friday, he’d stay til Monday. very nice!!! I’m glad he’s going to be here for the weekend, the weather is supposed to be beautiful, in the 70’s, and we’re going to go golf!!! Don’t get me wrong, I’m so glad he’s going to be here for the weekend, I hate weekends without him, but in a way he’s just prolonging the inevitable. Except he did say, you never know, I may just keep delaying going back and just not go back… don’t toy with my emotions like that!!! but, he knows how I feel and I can’t be the one to make that decision, he has to be. It will all work out though, this I know.
So there are three (weight loss, swimming, and dc staying longer) more things for me to be grateful for!!!
Monday, December 08, 2008
More Good Things
I was hoping that dc and I would have a good weekend and we did. We had a really awesome weekend!!! Saturday I cleaned and then went over to help dc work a little. We worked until a little after 5 and then went home… Saturday night we played Scrabble- too late to cook dinner- and built a fire!! I love fires!!! We’ve been talking about going camping but it has been really cold so we decided that since we haven’t been able to go camping we would camp in the living room. He had brought his sleeping bag so we set that up in front of the fire and camped out. I honestly haven’t had that much fun in a long time!!! Sunday we got up and he made cinnamon vanilla pancakes and omelets for breakfast!!! Lunch, during the Cowboys game, was brots with sauerkraut, and dinner was salmon, rice, and broccoli… the salmon was supposed to be dinner Saturday night but like I said, Scrabble got way good!!!
The kitties absolutely love boxes, especially the boxes that bottles of water come in… they are constantly playing or sleeping in them… Murphy loves being pulled around in a box so dc got the good idea to make them a sled out of a water box and some phone chargers that didn’t work. He cracks me up!!! So, here are the kitties in their sled… I suppose I should add that the sled has been repaired multiple times already… Mazzy likes to bite the charger cords…. She has an “old” one to play with that can chew up that won’t break anything but we apparently like to bite the one that is the handle to the sled…
The kitties absolutely love boxes, especially the boxes that bottles of water come in… they are constantly playing or sleeping in them… Murphy loves being pulled around in a box so dc got the good idea to make them a sled out of a water box and some phone chargers that didn’t work. He cracks me up!!! So, here are the kitties in their sled… I suppose I should add that the sled has been repaired multiple times already… Mazzy likes to bite the charger cords…. She has an “old” one to play with that can chew up that won’t break anything but we apparently like to bite the one that is the handle to the sled…
And… as an added bonus, next week is my last full week to work this year!!! I only have 11 working days left this year after today!!! But it’s a good thing I’m not excited and I’m not counting down!!!!
I was invited to December’s wine night on Monday the 15th but I’m not sure if I’m going or not. dc and I joined the Y (YMCA) and are participating in the Holiday Trimmings special they are doing. It’s basically 6 weeks for $6 and you can use any of the three Y’s in town and take advantage of all the programs that they offer. They have a grand prize winner for the most weight lost and then first thru third place winners for men and women. You have to weigh in all 6 weeks to be eligible for the prizes (so I know for sure dc won’t be since he won’t be here next week to weigh) and I’m not sure if I will be either. The only day I don’t know if I’ll be able to weigh will be the 30th- it all depends on if we go skiing or what over my Christmas break. I’m excited though, we’ve been working out and playing racquetball. They also have an indoor pool that I’m going to take advantage of when he leaves. I know wine night is only one night but I really think that if I don’t continue to go after work on a regular basis I’ll end up “one nighting” myself to death and never go to the Y and work out.
Saturday, December 06, 2008
Maybe It's Not So Bad
As an update to yesterday’s post, things are better today… something else occurred to me though… I’ve had my “visitor” basically for the past 3 weeks… yes, I’m on the pill but it doesn’t really seem to be working as far as regulating goes… so my hormones could be (and probably are) completely out of whack…
dc and I went and looked at Christmas lights last night. That is probably one of my most favorite things to do. I love looking at Christmas lights. We used to go look at lights together, years ago. I honestly don’t remember the last time I went to look at lights though. anyways, back to the point… the Christmas lights were disappointing this year… I don’t know if they have been the past few years but as of last night there were only a few people that had lights up (I say a few- a few compared to what I remember). We were talking and we don’t know if the economy is the reason or if people are just being Scroogey… the ex brought all my holiday decorations over about a month ago and they’re all sitting in the 2nd bedroom… the only problem is, I have no place to put anything… I’m debating on trying to put out a little bit of stuff or just not doing it… last year I didn’t have anything out either due to the move… I love decorating for Christmas though… so, decisions, decisions…
dc’s working and I just finished cleaning… I thought I’d stop by and blog for a minute before I go get in the shower… here’s to hoping his last weekend here is a good one!!
dc and I went and looked at Christmas lights last night. That is probably one of my most favorite things to do. I love looking at Christmas lights. We used to go look at lights together, years ago. I honestly don’t remember the last time I went to look at lights though. anyways, back to the point… the Christmas lights were disappointing this year… I don’t know if they have been the past few years but as of last night there were only a few people that had lights up (I say a few- a few compared to what I remember). We were talking and we don’t know if the economy is the reason or if people are just being Scroogey… the ex brought all my holiday decorations over about a month ago and they’re all sitting in the 2nd bedroom… the only problem is, I have no place to put anything… I’m debating on trying to put out a little bit of stuff or just not doing it… last year I didn’t have anything out either due to the move… I love decorating for Christmas though… so, decisions, decisions…
dc’s working and I just finished cleaning… I thought I’d stop by and blog for a minute before I go get in the shower… here’s to hoping his last weekend here is a good one!!
Friday, December 05, 2008
Enough Already
The Wednesday before Thanksgiving, when I was in such a not-so-good mood, and was trying desperately to get out of the funk, I decided to finally make a gratitude list. I haven’t shared my list with anyone because for some reason I am embarrassed about it… because of what I put on there I guess? I don’t really know… my list made me realize that I do have an abundance of things to be thankful for but somehow when I go re-read my list, I get sad. Really sad. I don’t know why this happens. It bothers me though.
I don’t know if me getting so sad has something to do with the fact that dc’s leaving next Friday, the 12th, to go back to Corpus for about a week or what. (He’s mentioned several times in my gratitude list). And I know I have no reason to be sad about him leaving but ever since I found out earlier this week that he was leaving next Friday I have just obsessed over that. It’s driving me crazy. I’m driving myself crazy. He is still here for a week but I’m already thinking about him leaving (and yes, he’ll only be gone about a week) and I know that the week will fly by and it will all be ok but it seems that every time he leaves it gets harder and harder to say bye. Devastating is the word that comes to mind. I absolutely hate it when he’s gone. I just want to ask him, do you really have to go? Why can’t you just stay? I know I should be grateful for the time he’s here (because he’s here more than he is there) but damn it if I can’t be. We’ve been hanging out/dating for almost 8 months and I still feel like I did when our relationship was new. The whole, I can’t quit thinking about him all the time, I constantly want to be with him, how good he makes me feel, how I think I can’t possibly care about him anymore than I already do but somehow I manage to find myself caring more and more. Feeling all of these emotions makes me feel like a sad sap of a person. Is this normal or is there something just “wrong with me?” I would give anything for him to just move back. Bring everything back with him when he comes back for Christmas… even better would be him not leaving and over Christmas vacation going down there and packing all his stuff up and bringing it back. Like I keep saying, I know I can’t make this decision for him, he has to do it, but damn it, I hope he knows how much it hurts when he leaves. He did say that he was shooting for the first of the year as far as moving back goes because it’s really hard trying to work from Corpus and here. We’ll see. I don’t want to get my hopes up and get excited until I know for sure.
I just want out of this funk. After writing all of this, I’m thinking that my sadness could be caused by a multitude of different things right now, mainly the holidays and dc’s leaving though. I’m really having second thoughts about posting all of this… like I said, I just feel like such a sad sap because I guess it’s almost like I feel that my happiness is directly related to if dc is here or not... and I know that’s not the case, I’m just so much happier when he is here.
I don’t know if me getting so sad has something to do with the fact that dc’s leaving next Friday, the 12th, to go back to Corpus for about a week or what. (He’s mentioned several times in my gratitude list). And I know I have no reason to be sad about him leaving but ever since I found out earlier this week that he was leaving next Friday I have just obsessed over that. It’s driving me crazy. I’m driving myself crazy. He is still here for a week but I’m already thinking about him leaving (and yes, he’ll only be gone about a week) and I know that the week will fly by and it will all be ok but it seems that every time he leaves it gets harder and harder to say bye. Devastating is the word that comes to mind. I absolutely hate it when he’s gone. I just want to ask him, do you really have to go? Why can’t you just stay? I know I should be grateful for the time he’s here (because he’s here more than he is there) but damn it if I can’t be. We’ve been hanging out/dating for almost 8 months and I still feel like I did when our relationship was new. The whole, I can’t quit thinking about him all the time, I constantly want to be with him, how good he makes me feel, how I think I can’t possibly care about him anymore than I already do but somehow I manage to find myself caring more and more. Feeling all of these emotions makes me feel like a sad sap of a person. Is this normal or is there something just “wrong with me?” I would give anything for him to just move back. Bring everything back with him when he comes back for Christmas… even better would be him not leaving and over Christmas vacation going down there and packing all his stuff up and bringing it back. Like I keep saying, I know I can’t make this decision for him, he has to do it, but damn it, I hope he knows how much it hurts when he leaves. He did say that he was shooting for the first of the year as far as moving back goes because it’s really hard trying to work from Corpus and here. We’ll see. I don’t want to get my hopes up and get excited until I know for sure.
I just want out of this funk. After writing all of this, I’m thinking that my sadness could be caused by a multitude of different things right now, mainly the holidays and dc’s leaving though. I’m really having second thoughts about posting all of this… like I said, I just feel like such a sad sap because I guess it’s almost like I feel that my happiness is directly related to if dc is here or not... and I know that’s not the case, I’m just so much happier when he is here.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
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