Up... Again

Ok, so today’s a good day… this up and down emotionally is really getting to me… wearing me out… oh well, I suppose I just take the good with the bad… maybe I should say the good with the not-so-good…
Last night I went to the Y and participated in an “upbeat” water aerobics class… basically dare I say a “hip hop” class… I was worried about this for several reasons- 1) it’s been forever since I have swam, 2) um, I am so uncoordinated and I have absolutely no rhythm, 3) I had to wear a swimsuit (I ended up wearing a t-shirt over it- but hello, it was a white t-shirt and my top was black- not so smart!), 4) it was in a not-so-good part of town, and 5) I was going by myself and had absolutely no idea what to expect. Needless to say, I was all kinds of worried and stressed for no reason… there were only 4 other people there besides myself and they were all really nice… that was good… so now I am going to start going to the class on a regular basis… Tuesdays and Thursdays at 6… the guy teaching the class was really nice and said that they never have anything going on down there and I am welcome to use the indoor pool anytime, just call him and let him know and he’ll turn the heater on for me… YAY!!! So I’m thinking that while dc is gone I’ll just go swim… I can’t even begin to tell you how much I miss swimming, I love being in the water… it’s such good exercise and for me it’s very enjoyable!!! I guess you could say it’s like exercising without hating it, or exercising without really exercising, doing something fun!!! I’ve been looking for that type of exercise for a while!!!
So here’s to hoping that today will be a good day and dc and I will have another amazing weekend (since, once again, it’s his last weekend here)!!! Happy Weekend Wishes to all of you too!!!

And More...

So it seems that the number of things that I am grateful for in my life just keeps growing and growing… and I’m excited and happy about this… I went and weighed today for the first Holiday Trimmings weigh in and since last Wednesday I lost 3.8lbs! This makes for a total of 15.5lbs that I’ve lost total!!! The weight loss was going much better until Thanksgiving rolled around and it took me a little while to get back on the wagon so to speak but I’m not complaining. Working out at the Y is helping and seeing the loss on the scale is also motivating!!! Tomorrow night I’m going to a different Y and going to a water aerobics and swim class!! I am so excited, I love to swim!!!! (dc is going to be out of town until about 8 so that will give me a chance to go check out another Y and see what this swim class is all about!!!)
dc announced last night that he’s not going back until Monday now… he said that he had been thinking about it and decided that he wouldn’t leave on Friday, he’d stay til Monday. very nice!!! I’m glad he’s going to be here for the weekend, the weather is supposed to be beautiful, in the 70’s, and we’re going to go golf!!! Don’t get me wrong, I’m so glad he’s going to be here for the weekend, I hate weekends without him, but in a way he’s just prolonging the inevitable. Except he did say, you never know, I may just keep delaying going back and just not go back… don’t toy with my emotions like that!!! but, he knows how I feel and I can’t be the one to make that decision, he has to be. It will all work out though, this I know.
So there are three (weight loss, swimming, and dc staying longer) more things for me to be grateful for!!!

Cheese Please

I’ve been missing dc… missing him bad… apparently he’s been missing me too (I’m glad)… anyways, we met in Waco last Friday after I got off work… we spent Friday night in Waco and Saturday morning we got up and drove to Austin… we spent Saturday and Sunday in Austin. I had never been to Austin before and it is absolutely beautiful. We stayed at the Hilton on 4th Street Saturday night and walked around the 6th Street area Saturday afternoon and evening. Sunday we went to Dave & Buster's (oh yeah we did) and we now have over 26,000 tickets. We watched the Cowboys play (read: lose) and then played some more. (When dc booked the room at the Hilton, he got us the romance package, he is so sweet he just kills me!!!) I have never ever had anyone “wine me and dine me” like he is and we’ve talked about this… like how in the beginning of a relationship you’re on your “best behavior” and for the most part you may not be acting like your “true” self… we’ve both agreed that ever since the first night we met for dinner we’ve both been acting like our “true” selves… which would explain the fights and arguments that we had in the beginning but our communication has grown so much better though, I am amazed. (I think that us both being our true selves has a lot to do with us having known each other our whole lives.)
This weekend his parents are going down to see him. It’s also our Autumn Harvest Moon Dinner (Knight of Columbus “thing” that my boss is really active with) at work. Last year at the dinner I won the Grand Prize which was a $750 gift certificate to United (grocery store) AND a $750 gift certificate to Walmart! Woohoo!!! I just wish dc was going to be here to go with me. That’s ok, he’ll be back Tuesday or Wednesday, hopefully Tuesday.
His birthday is Friday the 10th. Last weekend in Waco he decided that he would like to go to Vegas for his birthday. He said that if I could get off work he would pay for everything… SO… I’m off work the 13th and the 14th and we’ll be in Vegas the 11th thru the 14th!! I am so excited!!! I have never been to Vegas before and I can’t wait!!! He’s been once so we’re both really excited to go!!! I’m so excited, we’re staying at the Venetian (in a luxury suite-omg!!! I have never been exposed to anything so nice before- how sad is that?!?)!!! I can’t even begin to imagine the amount of pictures I’m probably going to take seeing as how I can’t seem to take enough pictures of places around here, lol. Momma is “kitty-sitting” her grandkitties while we’re gone… she’s so sweet!! I don’t know what I would have done lately without her watching her grandkitties while I roam all over the place.
I know I’ve only said this about a million times but it’s so nice to be happy, I could really get used to being happy all the time!!! It's not the "material" things or the places we go that make me so happy, it's just being with him. He is a truly amazing person. (I only wish he didn't live 8 hours away!) Things are good though and I couldn’t be happier.
(Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, on the way home I got a speeding ticket, 81 in a 55, ouch. I need to call on it to see how much it's going to be.)

Happiness

I know I keep blogging about being happy, mainly I think it’s because it’s something that I haven’t really felt in so long… bear with me…
For the past several months I have been so happy, happier than I have been in years. And it’s not just me that’s noticed. People that I don’t even know that well have made comments to me about it. I have mixed feelings about this. Was that I that unhappy that it was so obvious (to everyone) or now that I’m happy is it so obvious that I was unhappy? Does that even make any sense- is it the same thing? I’m hoping that it’s the fact that now that I’m so happy it’s obvious that I was so unhappy. I would hate to think that everyone was able to see that I was so unhappy for so long, especially since it took me a long time to accept the fact that I really was unhappy and that I needed to make a change. Needless to say, I suppose that none of that matters now because I am happy. I have made changes in my life for the better and for my happiness.
dc came into town early. I got back from Corpus on Monday the 25th and he was supposed to be here Friday the 29th. He ended up coming in Thursday. Only one day difference but I’ll take it any time! Originally he was supposed to be leaving today but he told me last Thursday morning that he wasn’t leaving today. I finally had the heart to ask him yesterday when he was going back “home”. He said he’s thinking next Monday (never would be fine with me, I think he should just move back here).
We decided that we’re going to go skiing over my Christmas “break”. Our Christmas vacation will be a long one this year too. We’ll work the 23rd and then not have to come back until 5th!!! Way too awesome!!! We’re going skiing in Breckenridge so that we can ski Vail and another place too (only I can’t remember the 3rd place). I’m really excited. Our weight loss isn’t going so swell but it couldn’t have anything to do with the fact that he is an amazing cook and is showing me how to navigate the kitchen. I know for a fact that I haven’t met anyone who can cook like dc can. We did buy a grill for my apartment though so hopefully we can try to cook a little healthier. I am inspired by Ilax and her weight loss though!! I need to follow her example!!!
On Labor Day we went bowling. I took a bowling class in college and never managed to break 100. Needless to say, in 2 different games I broke 100!!! I was so excited!!!
Saturday we went golfing in Muenster. They have the most beautiful golf course; hills, water, trees, everything that our golf courses in town don’t have. Everyone playing Saturday was playing so slow so I golfed a bit. I am currently learning how to putt. I suck pretty good at golf but it’s still fun and I love that dc is trying to teach me how to play. He doesn’t get frustrated and I don’t get embarrassed around him (that I suck). He’s a very good teacher.
(I do have pictures of my bowling scores and our golf trip to Muenster but I just can’t seem to remember to get the usb cord from dc so I can put them on the computer.)
Yesterday was a lazy Sunday. The only time I left the apartment was to go to get ice cream- I know, I know, once again, I wonder why we can’t lose weight. We watched 3 football games and the race. The Cowboys played an excellent game and Carl raced a good race.
I’m excited to see what this week has in store though. Life just keeps getting better and better.

We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same.
— Anne Frank