since i'm big on sharing emails i wanted to share this... it kinda describes where i am at, where i've been, and where i'm trying to go... it's like, i know i'm on the right track but sometimes i get nervous and doubt myself because i really am working on changing and change can be and is kinda scary... i am leaving the safety of the known (even if the known is maybe not as good for me) and stepping into the unknown... i would have to say that for the most now, now anyways, i am becoming more comfortable with what is going on in my life and am really working on changing...
Life has its ups and downs. While it may be tempting to wallow in our misery during the downs, or quickly move past the source of our despair, that isn't always the healthiest way to deal with a crisis.
It's human nature to avoid the emotional roadblocks that pepper the path to spiritual maturity, to seek instead the slow and steady pace of the ordinary traveler. Yet reaching higher spiritual ground requires an extraordinary traveler. It demands the kind of change that comes from facing challenges-emotional, spiritual, or physical—and growing as a result.
A spiritual initiation—an exceptionally difficult life passage that shakes your foundations and makes you question your purpose—is just this sort of change. Disguised as a loss, it's actually an opportunity to strengthen the thread of awareness that connects your outer inner selves, a chance to travel deeper into the soul.