This is how I feel today.

Astounding!

it never ceases to amaze me how quick your day can go from good to bad just like that... i woke up this morning and was in such a good mood.... i was even in a good mood when i got to work! and somehow managed to stay in a good mood until my "other half" called... last night when "we" (and i say it like that because r rode with me but stayed in the car while i took murph in) dropped murph off at the vet i started crying when i walked out of the vet's office... r said, we shouldn't have even got a cat, you can't handle it... i was like, sorry i displayed any sort of emotion... my fault! all night long he kept asking, what's wrong... i would say, i miss murph... so it's not like he didn't know i was upset by murph being gone... today he calls me at work and says, um, the vet just called... i said, what did they say? he said, you're not going to like this, i don't know how to tell you this... i'm like, WHAT? WHAT? he won't tell me and keeps saying crap like he was saying and then he's finally like, nothing, he's ok, everything is fine and he's ready to be picked up.... last night they told me he wouldn't be ready to be picked up until 3 or 4 so i was thinking, not a problem, i'll just run by and get him on my way home... r asked me if i wanted him to go get murph and i said, sure, that would be great! then he starts in on how stressed out he is and how he hates doing anything before work and how he doesn't like doctors or vets (because you know i just love them!) and doesn't really want to go get murph... that would only be adding more stress to him.... i mean, he only had 2 hours before he had to leave for work so i could see where he might not have enough time because the vet is maybe 5 minutes away.... and i mean, it's so stressful picking him up, you go in, get murph, and pay... then he gets mad at me because i didn't think his "little joke" was funny and because i'm "guilt-tripping" him about not going to get murph.... that's fine, not a problem, i'll just take care of it like i take care of everything else around the damn house! he doesn't like to do anything before work, whatever, he never likes to do anything unless it involves sitting on the couch on his fat ass and watching tv... fine, so i'll just go by and get murph when i get off work, hopefully not too late because today is the last day of the 3rd quarter and we always have a lot of stuff to do the last day of the quarter... but, i mean, i sure would hate to express that to r because i might be "guilt-tripping" him or something... the vet doesn't close until 7 but i would like to be there somewhat early... i don't want murph to think he is going to have to stay there forever... which brings me to my second gripe....
work, and especially the last day of the quarter, is busy.... my freaking idiot co-worker is in there in his office goofing around, like usual, and i look down and happen to notice the time, 12:45... he usually eats by 12:30.... but not today.... he's in there looking at his calendar, walking around his office, not doing anything of any importance, and then both foremen call and are ready to pull inventory tags.... so he runs in there and eats lunch real quick and is like, um, do you want to eat real fast? i said, well, i didn't bring anything, i'll have to go get something... he said, well, the foreman over at this shop is ready to pull tags now.... so out he goes and on the way out the door he says, i should be back in about an hour... thanks, so i can maybe eat lunch at two? but by then the other foreman will be ready to pull inventory tags so i guess that means that i get no lunch today... it's no big deal, i've only been starving since about 10ish... but, i'm just the secretary, no one of any importance so it's no big deal if i get to eat lunch or not... only half of my billing was done when i got here, which i'm glad half of it was done, but i sure would like to get the other half done before say 5ish... but we'll just have to see....
i mean, i guess if i don't get off work in time to get murph he can just stay another night... no biggie, he's just a cat, it's not like i treat him or love him like my kid or anything.... and speaking of that, if r won't even go get the cat from the vet how helpful is he going to be if we have a kid? great, that's what i have to look forward too... i'll just keep the cats thanks!
i am so pissed off right now it's not even funny!!! i want to literally explode... i'm trying to play it cool but man, it is so hard!!! like i said earlier, it just blows my mind how your day can go to hell in such a short period of time.... all within an hour!
well, my loaner typewriter is gone... i have the original back... i'm about to break out the instruction manual so i can figure out how to use it again... i had to learn to use so many different typewriters while mine was being repaired that i don't remember how to use this one.... oh well, it will give me something to do in my free time right now... that way i can bust my ass later trying to get out of here on time....
another thing, k, my best friend, asked me i wanted to go see 3 doors down in concert here on a saturday night and i was like, yeah! that will be fun!! so i'm telling r about it and he's like, well, what am i going to do then? i said, i don't know... he asked what k's husband was doing and i said going to a modified race... r's reply, fine, i'll just sit at home by myself while you go out and have fun.... i felt bad about it this morning but now i'm like, sit at home by yourself then! i really don't give a damn!!
tomorrow night is the annual "knights of columbus dinner" for work... the owner of my company buys a ticket for everyone that works here and the tickets are $100 each... they have a steak dinner, door prizes, and a raffle.... we went last year with k and her husband and it was fun... k and her husband aren't going this year and i kinda want to go because i feel bad that the owner spent that much money on tickets.... r is all pissed off because k and her husband aren't going... i had only worked here a little over a month last year so the owner wanted me to invite k and her husband, b, so that r and i would feel more comfortable... so i did and it was a good time! they weren't invited this year and now r doesn't want to go... fine with me, i may see if k wants to go.... then r can just sit at home by himself... don't get me wrong, i do love him but man, he just irritates me to no end sometimes....

Feelin' Better

i must say that i am feeling better.... emotionally and physically.... better than i have in a long time... the chiropractor got my headaches under control (i think anyways!)... my back hasn't really been bothering me.... and i'm not sad, i'm happy.... that is awesome! i have to say that i haven't felt this good, all over, in quite a while! and that makes me so happy!! it gives me much hope that things are on the upswing for a while! and this morning when i was driving to work and having so much trouble getting gas, broken pumps & crazy people, i was getting really frustrated and angry..... then i started thinking about it and everything happens for a reason... it seemed that the morning was starting out a disaster and then i was like, well, maybe not.... i was thinking about an email regarding 9/11 and about how people's lives were saved because of certain things that had happened to them that morning... no major disaster occurred this morning but i'm trying really hard to be conscious of my thoughts and to stay positive...

positive thought for today: What you think about is what you get. Being conscious of your thoughts is the first step in transforming your reality.

Momma is Awesome!

they say that your momma always knows how to make you feel better... this is so true... my last blog was about murph and how i was so sad that he had to spend the night in a little cage... thanks to momma she was able to put a positive spin on it for me and now i feel much better... maybe murph will even be excited (ok, maybe not excited but maybe it won't bother him so much, if it even does at all!).... here is what momma said in reply to my sadness....

Murph won't be all alone. There will be lots of other interesting pets there that he can check out from the safety of his own private room. See, if you think of it as a 5 star hotel room (because of what you're paying) he's getting a little vacation with room service, good food and personal attendants. :)

mom i do have to say that you are so awesome! thank you for everything that you have done for me (and my "family").... i love you more than you know and truly appreciate you and daddy both! you are wonderful parents and i couldn't ask for any better!!!

Tribute To Murph

this is my tribute to murph... r and i are taking the poor little guy to board him tonight so he can get fixed in the morning.... i'm so sad thinking that he has to spend the night in a little cage with no food, water, or toys... i'm packing his rat though so maybe that will make him feel better and he will realize that i'm coming back to get him as soon as i get off work on friday! i just wish i could explain to him that he hasn't been a bad kitty, he's a good kitty and this is for his own good... i've been giving him lots of extra love and affection lately hoping he'll know that we do love him and he is coming home! i had to take a xanax because i was just sitting here waiting to bawl like a little baby... i know the vet will treat him well, that's not what i'm worried about... i'm worried about what poor little murph is going to be thinking.... hopefully today and tomorrow will go by fast so i can get murph back! i already miss him and he's just at home! at least i know i'm not the only one who feels like this.... that is reassuring! i have to go pay bills for work now, more later!

i am so sad.... it's my own doing but i'm still sad... and it's only going to get worse between now and friday.... i just called the vet and made an appointment for murphy to get "fixed" on friday.... i know it's for the best that we get him fixed but it just makes me so sad!!!! we're going to board him thursday night (that's SO sad!!!) and then i'll pick him up after work on friday.... he has to wear a "lampshade" for a couple of days so that he won't mess with his incisions... poor little guy... i am so sad by the fact that we're going to leave him overnight... i think that's probably easier than trying to "starve" him and mazzy both thursday night.... mazzy will probably enjoy the vacation though.... poor little murph.... i hope he doesn't hold a grudge like mazzy does.... hopefully it will go smooth, i'm sure it will... the only problem that i'm sure we will have will be me... dealing with boarding him overnight... i sure will miss him (i act like he's going to be gone forever!! not just overnight!!)... i know i'll miss him even though he wakes me up between 4am and 5am every morning to play or for treats.... poor murphster!!!

well, it's monday again, my most unfavorite day of the week... i'm not in a good mood but i'm not really in a bad mood either... just indifferent i guess.... there hasn't been much going on... i'm feeling better and we got our insurance checks.... the adjustor accidentally left the oven off the statement though so he's cutting us another check for the oven.... r and i have been oven shopping, not very exciting, but it really needs to be done, i am really missing the oven... anyways, i'm about to call the vet to see if we can get murph in friday to get him fixed.... and that's about it... i've already got all my "monday" work done.... so i'm just sitting here now... bored, but that's ok....
i'm not taking as many pills as i was.... i'm taking a whole lot less actually... and i don't feel too bad.... i'm still just trying to take everything day by day and not let myself get stressed out over little stuff, i.e. my coworker.. he is so very irritating and reminds me of grandma c.... yuck! hopefully he'll retire or just work part-time soon! i could only hope so!! but then who knows who i'll be working with!! that could be just as scary.... until later i suppose....

once again, it's been a while since i've posted... there's been a lot going on, at least it feels that way... i'm feeling better!! glad that the strep throat and sinus infection are on their way out! work has been stressful but that's ok.... we're really busy, we actually have more than enough work to last thru the beginning of the year... that's ok by me, job security!
i talked to the insurance adjustor today and after "closing out the claim" 2 1/2 weeks ago he said that the check will be in the mail tomorrow... so maybe we can go oven hunting this weekend.... k and i went and looked saturday night for a few minutes and the oven we have now is big! and go figure it's built in... but that's ok... hopefully our insurance will do us right!
right now i'm trying to take one day at a time and not let all the "petty" stuff bother me.... i think i'm doing ok.... considering all the pills that i'm NOT on right now... that makes me feel better! needless to say i don't know much... considering that i haven't been writing much lately i feel that i should just have tons of stuff to say... oh yeah, the low cholesterol diet... well, i'm making a conscious effort to watch my cholesterol intake... and i think i'm doing better.... maybe not as good as i could be doing but better than i was doing... baby steps though right? after all i feel that i'm trying to implement multiple changes in my life right now and i think baby steps are the way to go... that way it's not too much at once... anyways, until whenever....

it's been a while since i've written so i decided i needed to do that.... i've been sick this week... found out yesterday that i have strep throat and a sinus infection... that explains why i haven't been feeling good... but i got started on some antibiotics so it should be good from here on.... the dr. also told me that my cholesterol was high so i am now trying to lower it with diet and exercise, apparently she doesn't know me very well... diet and exercise!! r and i talked last night though and he needs to work on his cholesterol too so that's good, we're going to do it together... blah! it'll be ok though! i've been looking recipes up online today... looks like it's going to be low-fat and low-cholesterol.... and i do need to exercise... i'm hoping that i'll start feeling better (at least like doing something) so that maybe i can get some exercise, i know it will make me feel better! and now i should be doing it... ok, i should have been doing it all along but we're going to start fresh now.... r and i decided that we'll start the low cholesterol on sunday (i think we're going out to eat saturday night and i am so excited!! i hardly ate all week because my throat hurt so bad so now i am going crazy!)... i think it will be ok though, it will be better for both of us! things aren't going too bad right now... i've about given up on trying to get ahead but that's ok... i'm just going to try to take it one day at a time and see how that works... just deal with stuff as it comes along and try really hard to not get worked up over things that i don't have any control over... i'm off to work now!!

i was really hoping that i could come in here today and write about what a good weekend we had and that things were looking up but i can't... saturday night was fun, we went out to our friend's house and watched the nascar race.... the rest of the weekend was just blah though... today has been a not so good day so far too.... i've basically been in tears since i got up this morning... i was trying so hard not to cry last night before i went to bed so i guess i just saved it up.... i'm just so stressed about so much right now... i've been getting sick, i.e. throwing up.... i guess i'm way stressed.... hopefully things will start looking up....

this week really sucked... bad.... next week has to be better... i don't know if i can survive another 5 days like the last 4 have been... it's friday night, 7:17 and i'm sitting here... drinking.. i know, ironic considering what i've been writing about... i must say that i do know what lies in my future should i consider taking the path that grandma has taken... i would hate to do that to my family though... i'm super pissed at her and i've been unhappy with her for a long time... it just feels like you're already at the bottom and then more stuff happens!! it just keeps piling on! and you wonder, where did all this come from? what happened? am i such a bad, horrible person that all this should keep happening to me? poor r, he should get out while he still can!! i'm just very frustrated right now... and sad... momma told me that grandmas c's doctor diagnosed her as manic depressive bipolar... and we all know that i'm seeing a psychiatrist... let me tell you, i feel SOO good about myself right now... the bills keep piling in and up.... my insurance at work isn't that great, but at least i have some!, so i owe money to the clinic for lab work for my physical and to the hospital for my "epidural cortizone shots" for my herniated disc... does it ever end?!?!? at this point i think not... r and i are trying so hard to "do the right thing" and pay off our debt... we both have good cars.... and we're buying a house... but it just seems that we're being punished for trying to "do the right thing"....
on a totally different note, how do i let people get in my head and affect me so bad... i.e. grandma c.. i've only been unhappy with her for years can i not just let her go? all i want is to not let it bother me... not just her, most things... i want to be able to just let it roll off my back... no sweat... maybe that's why grandma drinks so much, to block out all the bad... ok, not good.... i'm trying to rationalize her behavior?!?!?! now this bothers me... does this mean i'm going to be like her? i already have enough of her disorders i don't really want anymore, thank you.... maybe she just angers me because i see what she's doing to my daddy... i don't know... all i know is that i think one of my biggest fears is to end up like her... momma will tell me stuff and i'm like, man, that sounds like me... not good... what to do.... i don't know what else to say at this point...

i talked to momma while i was at lunch today.... daddy is on his way home! i know he's happy.. he said that grandma refuses to get help, she doesn't think she needs it so that's all there is too it.. and she wants to know why did everyone turn against her like they did... no one even calls anymore?!?! well, imagine that!!! momma also said that my aunt, yes daddy's sister, has a tumor on her back that's been bothering her for a while... she kept putting her appointment with the neurosurgeon off but finally had to give in and go because the pain got so bad... they told her they could either give her chemo or a shot to shrink it... that doesn't sound too good.... i hope that everything is ok... too bad grandma c can't even act right... hopefully everything will be ok with my aunt.... the fun just keeps coming!

GOOD NEWS!!! the insurance adjustor called and we're meeting him at the house at 1:00 tomorrow to get our claim closed out and the check cut! maybe we can get an oven now! i kinda miss having an oven!!! hopefully this is a sign that things are looking up!!

before the "letter to grandma" i'm going to have to vent.... i've already been to tree time this morning... tree time is a way to try to calm down and relieve some stress... if i could take myself out of the stressful situation it would probably help more but i can't very well just leave work whenever it suits me.... even though my co-worker does... i am already all sorts of pissed off today because of him... i love my job! he just makes it so difficult for me.... it's like he tries his hardest to make my job as hard as possible... and it's not a hard job, it's just him.... he is so concerned with what everyone else is doing instead of being concerned with his job... if he would take care of himself and his duties we wouldn't have half of the messes that we run into.... but i guess that would be too simple.... i understand that he's old and angry but that's not my fault... i didn't make his life choices for him, he made them for himself... so he needs to quit acting like an ass to me because he's unhappy... and he proclaims to be such a "good christian man"... my ass!! he is such a hypocrite! it just kills me... he really reminds me of grandma c, which is why i think he bothers me so much.... i don't know if it was the era that they grew up in or what but man alive! he is wearing me out... most of the time now i can just laugh him off but lately he's really been getting under my skin.... maybe because of all this going on with grandma too... i don't know... all i know is that my boss wants me to basically double check him and keep him in line (as much as possible) and that makes him SO mad... i can't help it if the boss told me to make sure he's getting everything done.... that's between him and the boss... but me "checking up on him" makes him resent me even more... and i've already been "taking his duties"... well, maybe if he could handle them they wouldn't get passed along.... i need to pay bills but noticed when i got here this morning that he's STILL trying to get the bills in here so i can pay them.... i mean, he only had all day yesterday.... but he was busy doing nothing... he just angers me! i am really working on trying to keep my anger in check but it's so hard... for instance, i've had a check written for petty cash since tuesday morning... we now have $17 left in petty cash and i told him that this morning and he laughed and said, yeah, i guess i need to get down there.... no hurry though! if the boss comes in and we're out of petty cash it's my ass, not his... only this time, it's his.... he's the one who has had the check on his desk since tuesday morning.... i would be more than happy to go to the bank but that's "his job"... not mine... and heaven forbid i "steal another job from him".... everyone knows i'm not trustworthy enough to go to the bank.... but i do feel better knowing that i'm not the only person he's like this with.... he is like that with everyone! even our accountants... and the business has only been using the same accountant(s) since it opened.... a while back the newspaper printed a letter to the editor that i cut out and have been carrying around with me for about a month... it is too funny! and i wish there was a way i could put it on his desk without him knowing it was me... but he would since i read the paper every morning at work.... he just irritates me and like i said, i have been trying to keep my anger in check and under control but he just pushes my limits.... i'm going to go back to tree time for a little bit to try to cool off some more....

today has been a not so good day... but (and this is going to sound really bad) i know that daddy's day is probably going a whole hell of a lot worse than mine is.... actually i know his whole week, up until thursday, is going to be crummy.... and that makes me so sad for him.... the reason he's having such a bad week... he's on "vacation"... i say vacation like that because he is on vacation from work but he had to go see "the evil one"... aka grandma c.... in my opinion there are 2 kinds of "old" people in this world... the ones who are so super nice and act like a grandma to anyone and then the others... the mean ones, even to family and friends... and i'm not talking about being ugly i'm talking about down right evil (ok, more about grandma c)... yes, she is evil.... i know it's not nice to talk about people like that but that is the only word i can think of to describe her.... well, selfish would work too... alcoholic.... hateful.... maybe i can think of other words to describe her.... i don't know if i'll ever see her alive again, which doesn't make me sad.... i've been unhappy with her for about 5 years now.... i discovered that i was not happy with her and it's just gone downhill from there.... about 5 years ago around christmas time i wrote her a letter because i hadn't talked to her in a long time and things were going good in my life and i wanted to share the good things with her.... she told mom and dad that she really enjoyed hearing from me and to keep writing but she wasn't going to write back because she didn't want to "waste a stamp"... they were like $0.27 then.... or something crazy like that... so that made me feel good... not wanting to waste $0.27 on one of your grandchildren... thank you. i could feel the love... before my wedding she called (yes, she was drunk at the time but i didn't know about all this then, she calls when she's drinking (not me anymore), i guess she doesn't realize it's her money she's spending).... she was telling me that she had bought the most beautiful expensive dress and it was going to be the prettiest dress at my wedding... ok, well, that really hurt my feelings but i let it go, once again.... she ended up not showing up at my wedding and causing my aunt to not be able to come.... i wasn't mad that she wasn't able to come but i was so pissed about her making my aunt unable to come.... my aunt was driving down here with her... and my cousin and her two daughters had already left so auntie couldn't catch a ride with them... i think it was grandma's plan all along... she needs so much attention... she ended up breaking her shoulder around the time of my wedding but didn't realize it for about two weeks because she was so drunk all the time... when she talks about it though it was when she was "so sick"... it's hilarious, mom calls her out on it, no, you weren't sick, you were drunk.... grandma is so in denial it's not even funny... needless to say i see where all my "problems" come from... addictive personality.... mental disorders.... basically all the craziness.... and let me say this, i LOVE pills!!! and i know that is not such a good thing to say especially with the subject that i'm discussing now but it's the truth... if it wouldn't have been for the pills the past couple of weeks i don't know that i would still be halfway sane... or not have run away somewhere.... grandma is making daddy and his sister's life hell... along with momma's and some other family members... grandma is so drunk all the time that she is hallucinating.... everything from people watching her and breaking in to everyone conspiring against her.... she stays drunk 24/7... calls mom and dad at all hours of the night... starting calling grandma k the other day (mom quit answering the phone) telling her she needed to find mom or dad because it was an emergency... and then she never remembers calling... daddy said she had bruises all over her where she keeps falling in the house... her eye is scratched and black from where she fell and hit her head and broke her glasses.... daddy took her to the doctor yesterday, which he basically had to take her kicking and screaming, and went back to talk to the doctor with her.... the doctor determined that she is still legally able to make her own decisions and if she refuses treatment for anything the doctors cannot treat her... my aunt and daddy were trying to get a court order so they could put her in treatment... she was lucid and clearly responded to all the questions the doctor asked so she is still under her own judgement... what can you do though? the doctor diagnosed her with manic depressive bipolar disorder.... my psychiatrist has brought both of those up to me regarding me and my mental state.... but since she's been drinking as long and as heavily as she has her body composition has changed and is bringing out the worst of her... that's been scary! i thought i had already heard the worst i could hear... nope, it just keeps getting better and better.... she told the doctor that she was going to drink and smoke until she took her last breath and no one was going to change that.... the doctor also thinks she might have some brain damage due to the heavy drinking.... she is causing my aunt and daddy so much heartache and grief it's not even funny.... and she thinks that everything is just fine and can't understand why everyone is so mad... in her mind she's in the right and everyone is just being mean to her when she's "so sick"... about four (that i know of) family members have quit talking to her because of her drinking and the way she's acting... and these are people that thought she was the world's greatest grandma who could never do any wrong.... i personally think she's a selfish bitch who deserves whatever comes her way... i know that sounds bad but i am trying really hard to forgive her and just let it go but this hatred (?) towards her has become such a part of me that it is so hard to just let it go... she is just a sick twisted individual.... i almost want to feel sorry for her but then i think about my aunt and daddy and get mad at her.... her actions are tearing my daddy up and i hate that.... what i dislike even more is that daddy hasn't been honest with me about her.... he says she's just acting crazy for some reason... momma has been filling me in on all this... daddy doesn't want us to think bad about her... shoot, i've thought bad about her for a long time... i don't think daddy knows that i know the truth... i just hate to see what she's doing to daddy... it's even worse for my aunt though, she lives on the same land as grandma... grandma has no idea what she's doing to my aunt or to daddy... and even if she did know she wouldn't recognize her as being the problem... there is way much more to the story, i'm just giving some of the highlights... well, that i can remember right now... today has been a long stressful day.... tomorrow though there will be more... and i'm going to "blog" her a letter... i'm not mailing it, i talked to mom about that and she said she doesn't think that grandma is any state to even try to comprehend what the letter would say... she would be all, why is she mad? what did i do? so, instead of "wasting" $0.37 on her plus paper and pen costs i'm just going to blog it.... i am hoping and praying that blogging it will help me just let her go.... and forgive her... even though i don't want too.... but i know that not forgiving her is hurting me more than her... she probably doesn't even know (or care) that i'm mad at her.... so i do realize that i need to let her go and forgive her.... and i do realize that pills are a problem but lately man they have been lifesavers.... i have no doubt in my mind that when the time comes (for real!) i can and will kick them.... right now though, don't even think about it... the pills are my survival tool... today is almost over so i'm about to shut it down for now.... but i am blogging my letter to grandma c tomorrow... that makes me nervous and makes my tummy hurt but it shouldn't... it's not like she's ever going to see it... and even if she did it's not like she would probably understand it... until tomorrow....

it's a good thing today started out so good... if my whole day had gone this good i probably would have gone home for lunch and not come back... let me say, i HATE a typewriter... not hate but HATE... and i don't feel bad hating a typewriter because it's an inanimate object and doesn't have feelings anyways.... work would be so much less stressful if i didn't have to deal with a typewriter... but unless we can get rid of the carbon copies i don't see that happening.... a dot matrix printer would work but i'm not going to ask.... the typewriter place is bringing me another loaner.... this will be my 3rd loaner while my typewriter has been in the shop.... oh please let my typewriter come back fixed and soon!! this is my wish!!! i'm wondering now if i should be a little bit worried about the typewriter that they're bringing me... they had to go look to see if they had another loaner.... and the one i have, well, it's a late 80's model... i think all typewriters should be burned!!!

it is tuesday after labor day and i sure am tired but did enjoy the long weekend... i got a lot of stuff done and even relaxed a bit.... it was nice to have a long weekend with nothing pressing to do.... i thought that i would be covered up at work this week but so far things seem to be going really well.... i think i'm actually already caught up!
i would like to say that yesterday was my best friend k's birthday... she finally turned the big 27!! i know she'll be excited to see that in here!! i just want to take a minute to tell her how awesome she is.... she is such a wonderful person.... every year she helps out at the MDA telethon... there aren't very many people i know that would take their day off from work to volunteer at a telethon... especially the hours she puts in!! she is such a giving person and would do anything for anyone... there aren't very many people like that anymore... (at least that don't expect something in return!) k has to be the most wonderful person that i know.... she gives, volunteers, and donates like there is nothing to it... she has inspired me to try to be a better person and i am seriously considering volunteering at the telethon next year.... i know it would be a very rewarding and enlightning experience...