Relaxed

last night when i got home i decided to see if i could find these meditations i had read about on the internet... i did... i meditated last night before bed and then got up 30 minutes early to meditate this morning... i have never actually meditated before... i did both times though... it's an incredible feeling, if you can call it that... the same person who wrote manifest your destiny narrates the cd's... i felt kinda silly at first.. luckily that feeling didn't hang around long... i felt such a calming sense of peace... it was like i was just suspended there... i couldn't feel the chair i was sitting in or the floor beneath my feet.. it was amazing!! i don't know if this is how everyone feels or not... when i was done i still had this sense of peace inside me... i went to bed feeling good! i still feel good... it's like a calming relaxed feeling... i'm trying to just let everything roll off my back... like water on a duck! i think i'm doing really good so far! i've been keeping my thoughts and words positive... i also feel a closeness to r and the kitties... it's deeper than it was before... it feels that way anyways... it's like i've developed a new respect/love (maybe?) for them... i realize more how much they mean to me and how important they are to me... i am confident that they all know that i love them unconditionally and always will... even the kitties... (speaking of which, mazzy has been being so nice lately... when i say nice i mean she'll let you pick her up and carry her around... and pet her- as long as you want! i wonder if she's feeling the happiness and love that i am sending out).... they say you get back what you give away so i'm trying to give away happiness, love, and peace.... it's a little difficult regarding some people but i know i can overcome the challenge... i just feel as if a weight was lifted off my chest... all my worries seem to have disappeared and i know in my heart that life is going the way it is supposed to right now... i am where i need to be... all that is supposed to happen will... i have faith.... a quote for today:
"Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency. Nothing is that important."
i'm not stressing over payroll today... in fact, i'm blogging when i would normally be working on payroll...
last night in addition to the meditations i found some audio books of the author's... i started listening to one of them on the way to work this morning... what he says makes a lot of sense... i learned that to solve a problem or dilemma you must look inside yourself for the answer... no one else can find the right answer for you... it is in you... you can't look outside your self and hope to find the right answer... Ralph Waldo Emerson said, "Nothing can bring you peace but yourself."... it is true... find peace within yourself... that's what i'm working on... so far so good!! oddly, i feel much more in control of my life... who would have thought when i started this blog last june that i would have come this far... i have found the road to peace in my life... i have overcome my prescription drug addictions... i am working on overcoming my food addiction... i quit smoking... i am changing my life for the better and i am in control of my life! honestly i never thought i would get here... and i'm just in the beginning... i can't imagine the results when i've been working on this for a while!!