Motivated!!

so i went to my weight watchers meeting last night... to be honest, i really didn't want to go... but i did... r was giving me a hard time about not going, which i am glad... he's being very supportive during this time of change... i lost 3.5lbs. ... my mindset before would have been, just 3.5lbs, this isn't worth it... but now it's i lost 3.5lbs., i didn't gain anything!! my goal right now is to lose 5 lbs... (baby steps!)... after i accomplish that goal i'll make it my goal to lose 10 lbs... just slowly work my way up... i also lost just enough weight to lose 2 points on the weight watchers program... that means that i have 2 points less today than i did yesterday for food... but that's ok, i can do this!! i guess it's kinda like rehab but for large people... they wean you off food... hehe... sounds kinda silly but it's true... i started drinking diet coke (0 points!) and will only allow myself a real coke on "special" occasions... a real coke (12 oz., not 20oz.) is 3 points!! now i'm learning to weigh what is important to me... and i'm learning portion control... which i personally hate, but i'm learning it... the portions today are huge but that's what i'm used too... and i'm used to eating all of it... but so far i think i'm doing really good!! last night in class we did this exercise that i thought was kinda pointless... until the end of it... it's called storyboarding... you basically plan all the steps to your goal... i never thought of weight loss as a plan, or i should say, something i have to plan... i always just tried to fit it in where i could... and if it didn't fit, oh well... now i realize that you need to have some sort of plan, it really makes losing weight a lot easier!! my target weight is 136-151lbs. based on my height and body build... i would love to be in that range... and i will be!! i know i can!! the meetings are motivational... what they say is true, those who attend meetings lose 3x as much weight as those who don't... the meetings are helpful... man, i sound like a walking advertisement for weight watchers... one more thing and then i'm done with this topic... you can earn points back by exercising... i know i'm going to have to start exercising... i am so motivated now!!
yesterday i also got to spend some time with one of my closest friends who i have not seen since august 2003.... it was so good to see her and spend some time with her!! i miss her terribly!! things just fell back into place though, like she'd never been gone at all... i really need to make an effort to keep in touch with people.... i am so happy for her though... she is engaged and has the cutest little baby boy!! he's about 14 months now... absolutely adorable!! it's really nice to have a chance to re-connect with people you haven't seen or talked too in a long time... she'll be back in august for her sister's wedding... so i'll get to meet her fiancee and we have planned to spend some time together!! i'm really looking forward to that! (by august who knows how much weight i'll have lost!!)
last night r and i were talking and i was talking about all the changes that i am making... losing weight... quit smoking... changing my thoughts/beliefs.... it is a time of change but it is good change!! i have been so happy lately... that's what i told r, man, i haven't had a bad day lately!! it feels so good too!!! i am so thankful and grateful for everything that i have and all the opportunities that have been shown to me... life feels like it is on the right track and i couldn't be more happy!!