the Holidays

Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.

well, it's monday after thanksgiving and i can say that i have not bought one single christmas present yet... that's ok though... i have no idea what to get anyone anyways... r and i had a nice long weekend.... we didn't do much, just kinda worked around the house and enjoyed our time off! we did make a list though of stuff that we would like to do to the house and i am really excited about that.... just a few of the things on the list are: new light fixtures in the kitchen and hall... take down the mirrors on the wall in the hall, replace the front screen door, "re-tile" the kitchen and the kitties bathroom, and carpet the back room and both bedrooms... some of the items take $$ and some don't require as much $$ so i think we're just going to start where we can and work on that... i think that just replacing the light fixtures and getting the mirrors off the wall in the hall will make a big difference!! and i am excited about that! the house just needs some updating!

we think our tv in the living room is about to go out... it's acting weird and the picture is starting to get dark... we would like to buy a big screen but once again $$ is required... we'll just have to see how things go! hopefully our tv won't go out before we can get a new one though! no tv, oh no!!

coming back to work today was difficult... i just wanted to stay home with the kitties! i know they were probably ready for both of us to go back to work!! it was a nice long weekend though! now i just have to work 20 more days and then i get a week off, 9 days counting the weekends... but who's counting?!? i am looking forward to christmas, thanksgiving was really nice though, it's always really nice to get to see everyone! christmas is better because s is in town! even if it is for only a short period of time! i miss him and love getting to see him!

i am working on staying positive... i noticed that it was kinda hard when i was at home because all i did besides work around the house was read and watch tv... i'm reading true crime books right now and we watched the bondathon on spike tv (james bond).... we always watch the bondathon... i guess it's tradition for r and i... it's easy to let yourself get distracted by the books or the movies though and i just kept reminding myself, don't be stressed/angry/mad (or whatever), there is no reason to feel that way, any stress right now is stress that i have brought on myself and doesn't need to be there... it's true though, what you put into life is what you get back....

i haven't been enjoying the true crime books as much as i was before... since i've been trying to change my way of thinking i have noticed that some of the things that i used to enjoy i don't enjoy so much anymore... now i just need to replace those with something else... yoga keeps pushing itself into my mind and i sure would love to start doing yoga again... i really need to try to get yoga into my daily schedule... i know i would feel much better!! there are several things that i need to start doing!

speaking of starting to do things... i really need to start exercising, yoga!, and watching what i eat... i got on the scale saturday and it was upsetting! i have gained 9lbs!! i can tell because my clothes don't feel as loose as they had! that is upsetting but i can't blame anyone else for it! it's my fault! so now i have to do something about it! i have too!! and i plan on it!

i'm off to try to find some heart healthy recipes! until later...