Worn Smooth Out

well, it's tuesday and my plan for getting to bed early last night didn't work so well.. i am worn smooth out... i have been so tired lately... part of it is because, as silly as this sounds, i have been having really bad scary nightmares.... they're the dreams that you can't remember but when you wake up you feel uneasy and like you didn't sleep very good at all.... this morning i woke up crying... i can't remember why either.... i thought maybe it was the nyquil making me have bad dreams but for the past two nights i haven't taken any and have still had nightmares... this happens occasionally.... i went thru a really bad spell of nightmares when i was coming off the oxycontins... i'm not on anything now, well, occasionally i'll take a pain pill or xanax when needed but no more just taking them to take them.... i am just ready to get some good sleep...
on top of having nightmares my sleep has been really restless.... i'll sleep really good for about 3, maybe 4 hours if i'm really lucky, then wake up and toss and turn until it's time to get up... then when i get up i'm so tired.... but the weird thing is that my dreams have continuing even after i wake up and when i finally get back to sleep... i haven't changed any meds or anything recently... i'm trying to think if i've been doing anything different that might be affecting my sleep... all i know is that i am tired!!! i would love to go home and crawl in bed right now!! i could sleep all day long (and then i know i wouldn't be able to sleep tonight!).... and as far as sleeping in on the weekends, i've been getting up on saturdays and sundays by 10 (which is good for me!), with the exception of this sunday... r and i slept until almost 1:00... but i didn't get home from the 3 doors down concert and walmart until 1:30(ish)... and r got home after me... i can't even tell you what time it was, i was trying so hard to stay awake but that didn't work too well.... i finally went to sleep about 7am sunday morning.... well, i tried to sleep from about 2am to 7am and it was just restless tossing and turning.... i know this can't go on forever, eventually i'll get tired enough and just sleep... i've just been grouchy though and i'm kinda tired of that....
on a totally different note, 2 men just came in here to talk to my co-worker about maybe paying us to use one of our buildings to paint some very large steel objects in and he was so rude!! i was so embarassed to be sitting in here with him talking to them like that.... i just wanted to crawl under my desk.... i did get up and go to the back... for being such a "good christian man" you would think he would abide by the golden rule, treat others like you wish to be treated.... he doesn't though, he is such an ass.... he gets all worked up when people are rude to him and he'll slam the phone down or just be plain rude back, no killing them with kindness for him... (i'm working on that though).... i wish he would just take a step back and look at himself and see how he's acting.... FOOL!