D Day!!

as my friend posted in her blog, today is D-Day!! for Doom's Day, Divorce Day, and/or Disaster Day!!! it is official, nick and jessica are splitting!!! this is not good news for the rest of us who, as embarassed as i am to say this, look up to them... maybe look up isn't the right choice of words, maybe just curious to see how the "others" live.... they always seemed so happy, especially in newlyweds... i mean, you wouldn't expect any less but, divorce!! really?!?!?! i mean first it was jennifer and brad... now nick and jessica... man alive!!!
on a different note, i am having a good week! things haven't gone too bad this week... even though i didn't get a lunch again today... my co-worker was just going to run to pick up some bolts real quick (15-20 minutes tops!) and be right back so i could eat lunch... he was gone over an hour (AND he forgot to drop off the bolts that he just had to run and get so they're still in the back of his truck, it sure is a good thing he had to go right then to get them! blithering idiot!!!) i mean, come on!!! how hard is it to pull your head out of your ass? apparently for him (and much of the male species) practically impossible!! so no lunch for me today... i am trying like hell to not get mad about it too... i mean, if he would eat lunch when he normally does, instead of i feel like, trying to screw me out of my lunch (or whatever else it might be) then i would have a chance to eat... but he's losing his damn mind so can i really hold him responsible? yes, i think so, he seems to be doing it on purpose... so my goal is to make his life as damn miserable as i possibly can.... ok, i know that shouldn't be my goal but now i'm getting pissed.... and i guess i'm pissed at me too because i just bite my tongue and never say anything... i don't know how much longer i'm going to be able to do that and i am scared that one day i'm just going to go off on him... but that's ok, it's just like talking to grandma c, it just goes in one ear and out the other... he usually interrupts me while i'm talking and then doesn't stop, he just keeps on talking... ok, because i wasn't saying anything... but besides starving right now the day has been pretty good!!
i found this article online about grudges... i really need to work through this grudge with grandma c... not so that i can forgive her per say but so i can let it go.... the grudge i'm holding against her isn't hurting her, it's hurting me... she has no idea i'm not happy with her... maybe that's what i'll work on this afternoon.... maybe i'll just sit here and stew, who knows... i don't have very much left to do this week... i'm trying to save something to do tomorrow!!