Excellent!

i just want to say that i am so happy today and have been since last night... last night k invited r and i to a banquet for bpw (business & professional women)... k is president of the organization this year and has been trying to get me to join bpw for years now... i am ready! i want to join! and i'm going too!! i had such a good time at the banquet last night, it was so much fun! and to be honest, r is so supportive of bpw, he told me the whole way home, i think you should join, that would be good for you!! it was really quite surprising to me that he was as supportive as he was! but i think he can see that it is an excellent organization and that it would be good for me (even though he might not admit that)! in a way, and i hate to say this and then ruin it, but i feel like a sense of peace is washing over me.... i'm trying my best to be conscious of my anger and to head it off before i get angry... so far so good... i actually had a conversation this morning with my co-worker and didn't want to rip his head off.... today when he does the normal stuff that drives me up the wall i just tell myself, he is so goofy and kinda giggle about it!! i'm really working hard on controlling my anger and trying to make a conscious effort to be a better person! i am hoping that my good mood will stay and that i can keep on doing as good as i've been doing since last night... my cheeks hurt from smiling so much last night... that hasn't happened since our wedding.... it is such a good feeling! i find myself trying to think thoughts that are talked about in the book i'm reading, manifest your destiny, and it seems to be going good! and the past few days i've been seeing all sorts of "signs", if you will allow me to call them that... anything from emails to cards, articles that i read online randomly, all sorts of different places... and all the "signs" are pointing towards what the book is teaching me... it's really exciting! i just can't quit smiling!! it is so awesome how these signs come when i'm needing them... i don't think it's a coincidence but there is a higher power (God) working in each of us (as well as everything in the universe) and i believe that when signs appear as they have been lately for me that is a clue that i need to be paying attention those signs... that i am headed in the right direction.... and that just makes me feel so much better... like i'm moving in the right direction... and i believe i am! and that's what matters, what you believe!!
i haven't said much about the book manifest your destiny (and it might sound a little crazy just from what i've said in my blog) but it's not... it really makes sense... simply put, energy is in all of us and in everything and we have the energy to manifest whatever it is in life that we are looking for or need ... if i would have started reading it a month ago or a year from now i can't say that it would have made me think about it like i am now... i think timing is a key factor regarding things like this... i know that something has been missing from my life for a long time (religion? spirituality?) and i think i've found what has been missing... now i'm working towards developing "my higher self" so that i can recognize and see the energy that is in all of us and that connects all of us... no more being judgemental or looking "down" upon people... i'm working on changing.... i feel that i have accomplished a lot so far (and i may or may not have) but as long as i am moving towards my goal, no matter how slowly, things will just get better... i know that "bad" things will still happen but at least i will be in a better frame/state of mind to deal with the "bad" things.... oddly enough, my infinite awareness quote and prayer today was:

I AM CONNECTED TO THE CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE

Let us pray:
Dear loving God within,
I am an extension of
You dear God.
And because I am
connected to You...
I am also connected
to the power, the
wisdom... and full
understandings of
the entire universe.
The genius of God
that came through
the great inventors,
the creative masters,
and today's
wondrous idea
people, comes
through me NOW.
Thanks to You dear
God... my power is
beyond reckoning.
Amen & amen.

it all ties in and fits! it is so wonderful! i cannot thank my chiropractor enough for telling me about this book... she has been a wonderful inspiration to me, she said that i remind her a lot of herself when she was my age... if so, she has come a long way!! her and k are both a great inspiration to me! they are both so selfless and giving! so for all of you who have had your fingers crossed for me, keep them crossed!!! i think there is a chance that courtney might be in control!!!