Monday, November 17, 2008

That Stings

A blog that’s finally not about food…
I understand that people can’t hurt you unless you let them hurt you… that doesn’t make it any easier though. Someone that is supposed to be one of the people closest to me in my life has really hurt my feelings and it’s not something that has just happened once. There have been a few situations and I’ve tried to just let it all go and not worry about it but like I said, it doesn’t make it any easier. I suppose this is just one way of finding out who your true friends are; friends that will love you and accept you when you’re happy or sad, rich or poor, no matter what your situation or what choice you make in life. I thought that this person was a true friend but over the past few months I’m thinking that 1) I was wrong in that assumption or 2) maybe things have changed between us and that’s not the case now. I have decided that I’m not going to apologize for the choices that I’ve made and that if my “friends” can’t be happy for me finally being happy then maybe they’re not really my friends after all. I don’t understand why they can’t be happy for me, maybe they’re not happy in their lives and seeing me happy upsets them, maybe they liked me better when I was sad and miserable most of the time, I don’t know the reason and I really don’t understand but there’s nothing I can do about it except try to remove myself from the situation. I’m not going to stand around and let them pick on me and make me feel bad about myself especially when the decisions that I’m making are making me a happier person and they are good decisions for me. I can’t do that because it’s not fair to me. And as selfish as that sounds, I have learned that I have to take care of me. This has made me realize who my true friends are and it makes me so grateful for them.

4 comments:

kilax said...

It seems you can really tell who your true friends are based on how they act when you have GOOD news. A good friends shares the news with you and is excited and happy. A bad friend is jealous and withdrawn. You can tell.

And if they run when you have bad news, that's a bad sign too.

Obviously, you learned all this. It's always hard and shocking when it happens. And it makes me ask "WHY can't you be happy for me?"

Jenny said...

Why are you going to apologize? If anyone needs to apologize it is your friend. I am going to have to say sometimes you do grow apart, I have been in a similar situation myself. You just don't know why but you just seem to take different paths in your life. Don't let this stop your happiness, just say your peace and move forward in your life.

Gina (Mannyed) said...

I know it stings now, but its truly better in the long run when you know just who you can and can not count on. Hang in there, Court!

Martha said...

Ouch!