Wednesday, November 26, 2008

I'm Trying, I Really Am

Momma wrote me a letter once and in it she said something along the lines of, those that we are closest too will hurt us the most. It took me a long time to really and fully understand what she meant by that. Things have been a little on the “rough” side lately. With Thanksgiving tomorrow I’m really trying hard to focus on the good things in my life. I have so many things to be thankful for, I just need to get rid of the negative mindset and work on the positive mindset. That in itself is a challenge and right now I’m so tired and worn out. I’ve been sick since Sunday and on top of that haven’t been sleeping good at all, like 3 maybe 4 hours a night. I would so much rather be happy than sad, I just need to get there.
Ironically, after I published that I got an email which was very much needed…

For me, this picture embodies what I feel thankfulness is. Presence, Recognition, Honor and Gentleness
Thankfulness comes from awareness gained by being completely Presence in the moment.
This presence leads to a deep Recognition of what we have and how precious it all is.
The realization of the precious nature of what we have leads to Honoring it.
Honoring it leads to being Gentle with what we have.
Being Thankful can be like walking a razor’s edge sometimes. I know I fail at times to be Present, to Recognize, to Honor and/or to be Gentle. We all have varying issues that cloud our ability to be thankful for any given thing from a job to a relationship. Sometimes, it takes effort to be thankful! It is fighting yourself, your inner demons, to choose and have happiness. The Spiritual Warrior doesn’t fight the world. The Spiritual Warrior fights those things within him or herself that prevent health and happiness.
Wishing you all a grand GivingThanks day. May you have fewer inner and outer battles this GivingThanks day!

1 comment:

Gina (Mannyed) said...

Happy GivingThanks Day, Court! On the lines of your last post, a co-worker who I became close friends with decided to cut me out of her life for reasons still a little unclear to me. It stings, and does put a slight damper on Thanksgiving, but I'm trying to focus on the good in my life and the friends I have, including you!