here is a pic of R and I at his dad's wedding last weekend... I'm working on getting something posted I just haven't had any time... hopefully soon though!!
Monday, March 24, 2008
R and I
here is a pic of R and I at his dad's wedding last weekend... I'm working on getting something posted I just haven't had any time... hopefully soon though!!
Monday, March 17, 2008
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Better!
Today is a good day… yesterday wasn’t a bad day either but I think that was mainly because I left work early… R had a stress test and an echocardiogram scheduled for 3:00 and 4:00 yesterday… good news though, his stress test came back good and instead of us having to make an appt to come in and get the results of his echo we can just call in about 2 weeks for the results… woohoo!! It’s amazing how much less stressed things are at the house now… a very noticeable difference…
I’m so excited because I voted in our primary yesterday… (it’s only the 2nd time I’ve ever voted)… I’m getting into the election this year, well, more than ever before- I usually never even pay attention…
I am feeling better emotionally… I really don’t know if it’s the med changes or my mind… I’m not sure if the med changes would be noticeable this quick but all we did was increase two meds by 1 pill each… I think that they are curbing my appetite though… thankfully!!!
R’s dad called him at lunch today (mind you he knows lunch is a busy time for him but it never fails, he always picks the “best” times to call)… his dad is getting re-married on the 22nd… so he calls to see if R will be his best man… he said, I was going to ask your brother to do it but I thought I should ask you since you’re the oldest… R calls to tell me and I start asking him questions like, where, when, what type of dress (casual, dressy, etc), and other questions that you would think his dad would have the answers too… nope, his dad can’t answer any of the questions except for the date of the wedding… he said, let me find out and I’ll get back to you on everything… he says to R, just wear the tux you wore at your wedding… um, ok, we had this conversation before our wedding- we rented it… then he brings up the rehearsal dinner and that R will need to be there for it but it’s on Friday night… R says, um, I’ll have to see what I can do about that, Friday is a really busy day for us and we don’t have any people that could really “be” R that night… so poor R, he calls me and the first thing out of his mouth is “well, the stress is back”. On the bright side, at least it’s only a temporary stress and there’s nothing we can really do about it… but… I’m slightly stressed now too because I don’t even own a dress… I have no idea what to wear… no idea where it’s going to be… that’s awesome!!! (don’t get me wrong, I’ll figure something out- I’m going to email his sister and see if she knows anymore than we do- I’m not that stressed about it though, to me it’s nothing to get too worked up about- plus, his dad is just stressful in general!!) Oh yeah, they haven’t even sent out the invitations yet- they’re still working on them…
Ok, enough about stress… onto something better… I’ve been thinking about this and really wanted to send a "shout out" to thank you, my friends, for being there for me… thank you for the emails & conversation, comments (that helped immensely), for just “being there”, and for listening to me rant and rave… to my blogger sisters, it still amazes me how people that you’ve never met before (in person) can become such an significant part of your life… I am so glad that Kelly introduced me to blogging… I would have never made such good friends had she not…
Today I’m grateful for: friends- both far and near- I hope you know how appreciated and special you are to me!
I’m so excited because I voted in our primary yesterday… (it’s only the 2nd time I’ve ever voted)… I’m getting into the election this year, well, more than ever before- I usually never even pay attention…
I am feeling better emotionally… I really don’t know if it’s the med changes or my mind… I’m not sure if the med changes would be noticeable this quick but all we did was increase two meds by 1 pill each… I think that they are curbing my appetite though… thankfully!!!
R’s dad called him at lunch today (mind you he knows lunch is a busy time for him but it never fails, he always picks the “best” times to call)… his dad is getting re-married on the 22nd… so he calls to see if R will be his best man… he said, I was going to ask your brother to do it but I thought I should ask you since you’re the oldest… R calls to tell me and I start asking him questions like, where, when, what type of dress (casual, dressy, etc), and other questions that you would think his dad would have the answers too… nope, his dad can’t answer any of the questions except for the date of the wedding… he said, let me find out and I’ll get back to you on everything… he says to R, just wear the tux you wore at your wedding… um, ok, we had this conversation before our wedding- we rented it… then he brings up the rehearsal dinner and that R will need to be there for it but it’s on Friday night… R says, um, I’ll have to see what I can do about that, Friday is a really busy day for us and we don’t have any people that could really “be” R that night… so poor R, he calls me and the first thing out of his mouth is “well, the stress is back”. On the bright side, at least it’s only a temporary stress and there’s nothing we can really do about it… but… I’m slightly stressed now too because I don’t even own a dress… I have no idea what to wear… no idea where it’s going to be… that’s awesome!!! (don’t get me wrong, I’ll figure something out- I’m going to email his sister and see if she knows anymore than we do- I’m not that stressed about it though, to me it’s nothing to get too worked up about- plus, his dad is just stressful in general!!) Oh yeah, they haven’t even sent out the invitations yet- they’re still working on them…
Ok, enough about stress… onto something better… I’ve been thinking about this and really wanted to send a "shout out" to thank you, my friends, for being there for me… thank you for the emails & conversation, comments (that helped immensely), for just “being there”, and for listening to me rant and rave… to my blogger sisters, it still amazes me how people that you’ve never met before (in person) can become such an significant part of your life… I am so glad that Kelly introduced me to blogging… I would have never made such good friends had she not…
Today I’m grateful for: friends- both far and near- I hope you know how appreciated and special you are to me!
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Monday, March 03, 2008
The Craziness Continues...
This is going to be another random post… jumping from here to there… ranting, raving, crying… who knows what all it will encompass…
Lately I spend all of my time working… I have four jobs… yes, some of them are “seasonal” but right now I’m working 4 jobs… my job at WMP, taking care of the Cedar Tree stuff, bookkeeping for km and co-workers, and tax time… I do miss having free time but I know that I won’t be working this hard for too much longer… tax season round 1 is over in a month and a half… speaking of taxes, I really need to finish getting our stuff together so we can file… I’m so close to being done but there is so much to get together this year I’m a little overwhelmed… I’ll get it taken care of though… hopefully this week…
GOOD NEWS: Carl won the race in Las Vegas yesterday… Race 3 of the year and he’s won the last 2!!!! I worked while we watched the race yesterday… it was a really good race too!!! he had an issue during post-race inspection so we’ll have to wait and see what the outcome of that is… but he did win!!! So far it’s looking like a good season for Carl and the #99 team!!!
“Real” Life:
This morning I had an appt with my psychiatrist… this was one of those times I didn’t want to go because I knew he was going to upset me… (I think if I phrase it like this it makes me feel better- I was already upset I just knew he was going to ask questions and then I’d have to talk about everything and get even more upset but that’s just part of it)… I do love my head shrinker dr though… he is really awesome… so we’re changing my meds up… increasing the dosage on two of the billion I take…
I’ve been super emotional lately… some of the blurbs I mentioned two blogs ago are really appropriate… being angry, waking up depressed, thinking my life is shitty, and so on… I feel I have been trying to do everything in my power to stay positive and to keep an upbeat attitude but I feel like it’s not working… I’m tired, worn out, and have no motivation… trying to get myself to do anything is a battle… I’ve been taking everything super personally…. Needless to say I’ve been an emotional wreck lately… so this morning at the dr I didn’t even bring up the fact that I’ve been thinking about babies… if I can’t even keep myself in check and in control how am I going to take care of someone else?!? I go back in two weeks though to see how the med adjustment is doing…
I've also been eating like crazy... like there's no tomorrow... besides trying to shut everyone out, I think this is my way of trying to deal with everything, to just eat... I bought a pair of jeans maybe three weeks ago and they are already getting way too tight!!! I hate this and I have to do something about it but it seems that all I can think about is food...
The weather here has been absolutely nuts for several weeks… yesterday it was 82, today we have a chance of snow- up to 3” (with a high of 40- that was this morning when I woke up)… and tomorrow it’s supposed to be in the 60’s… maybe that’s why everyone is still sick and can’t get over this crap that’s going around… I’ve been battling the flu/sinus nastiness for the 2nd time… R has it for the first time, still, and can’t shake it… he’s been thru one round of antibiotics and he’s still sick… it seems that almost everyone is sick with this stuff and it lingers… once you get it you can’t get rid of it…
One final rant before I go… I try so hard to be a nice person and to help anyone out when I can… it seems that the more and more you try to help certain people the more and more they take advantage of your niceness… then they expect you to do everything for them all the time… like I don’t have enough of my own stuff to do and take care of… I’m not saying I mind helping people out or mind doing stuff for people it just frustrates me to no end that people take advantage of your niceness…
Today I’m grateful for my psychiatrist and my wonderful understanding willing-to-put-up-with me and all my craziness husband…
Lately I spend all of my time working… I have four jobs… yes, some of them are “seasonal” but right now I’m working 4 jobs… my job at WMP, taking care of the Cedar Tree stuff, bookkeeping for km and co-workers, and tax time… I do miss having free time but I know that I won’t be working this hard for too much longer… tax season round 1 is over in a month and a half… speaking of taxes, I really need to finish getting our stuff together so we can file… I’m so close to being done but there is so much to get together this year I’m a little overwhelmed… I’ll get it taken care of though… hopefully this week…
GOOD NEWS: Carl won the race in Las Vegas yesterday… Race 3 of the year and he’s won the last 2!!!! I worked while we watched the race yesterday… it was a really good race too!!! he had an issue during post-race inspection so we’ll have to wait and see what the outcome of that is… but he did win!!! So far it’s looking like a good season for Carl and the #99 team!!!
“Real” Life:
This morning I had an appt with my psychiatrist… this was one of those times I didn’t want to go because I knew he was going to upset me… (I think if I phrase it like this it makes me feel better- I was already upset I just knew he was going to ask questions and then I’d have to talk about everything and get even more upset but that’s just part of it)… I do love my head shrinker dr though… he is really awesome… so we’re changing my meds up… increasing the dosage on two of the billion I take…
I’ve been super emotional lately… some of the blurbs I mentioned two blogs ago are really appropriate… being angry, waking up depressed, thinking my life is shitty, and so on… I feel I have been trying to do everything in my power to stay positive and to keep an upbeat attitude but I feel like it’s not working… I’m tired, worn out, and have no motivation… trying to get myself to do anything is a battle… I’ve been taking everything super personally…. Needless to say I’ve been an emotional wreck lately… so this morning at the dr I didn’t even bring up the fact that I’ve been thinking about babies… if I can’t even keep myself in check and in control how am I going to take care of someone else?!? I go back in two weeks though to see how the med adjustment is doing…
I've also been eating like crazy... like there's no tomorrow... besides trying to shut everyone out, I think this is my way of trying to deal with everything, to just eat... I bought a pair of jeans maybe three weeks ago and they are already getting way too tight!!! I hate this and I have to do something about it but it seems that all I can think about is food...
The weather here has been absolutely nuts for several weeks… yesterday it was 82, today we have a chance of snow- up to 3” (with a high of 40- that was this morning when I woke up)… and tomorrow it’s supposed to be in the 60’s… maybe that’s why everyone is still sick and can’t get over this crap that’s going around… I’ve been battling the flu/sinus nastiness for the 2nd time… R has it for the first time, still, and can’t shake it… he’s been thru one round of antibiotics and he’s still sick… it seems that almost everyone is sick with this stuff and it lingers… once you get it you can’t get rid of it…
One final rant before I go… I try so hard to be a nice person and to help anyone out when I can… it seems that the more and more you try to help certain people the more and more they take advantage of your niceness… then they expect you to do everything for them all the time… like I don’t have enough of my own stuff to do and take care of… I’m not saying I mind helping people out or mind doing stuff for people it just frustrates me to no end that people take advantage of your niceness…
Today I’m grateful for my psychiatrist and my wonderful understanding willing-to-put-up-with me and all my craziness husband…
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