Still Here

even though you can't tell by looking at my blog i'm still here... still around... just really busy and probably will be for the next 13 days.... this last week i worked monday thru thursday after work (with km, her mom, & her sister) putting together tax returns... i'm pretty much working every day up until april 17th except for sundays... so between that, my work, the restaurant, and then all the daily "stuff" that has to be done i've been a bit covered up... (on top of it being the end of the year for my work and the end of the quarter for the restaurant! basically, this means that i am covered up!!) i've meant to blog everyday (and it seems like something eventful has happened everyday) but i just haven't been able to find time... since i just finished the secret (at lunch) today, i guess i need to make that last statement about not being able to find time into something positive... like, i have all the time to accomplish everything that i need to do.... and believe it!! (that's the more difficult part!)....
for the most part, the secret was a good book... it did bring me back to the mindset i need to have... well, it made me aware that my mindset hasn't been what it needs to be.... so i am working on trying to stay positive... and for the most part, i think i've been doing a really good job... don't get me wrong, i've had my negative days but that's just something that's going to happen.... one day i'll share some of the book's end of chapter summaries... i would now but it's out in the car and i really don't want to go get it...
so, what has been going on.... last week....
tuesday- went to my psychiatrist that morning... he said good deal about my positive attitude... that changing your attitude will, can, and does help your outlook and how you feel... he gave me a kudos on the attitude thing, he said, especially because of my back.... later that morning i had an appt with my back dr... we talked about different treatments and he told me that if i wanted to see orthopedic surgeon he would be happy to refer me to one but he thinks that we should do a cortizone shot or two first to try to relieve some of the pain... he isn't for sure if the surgeon would treat me with everything being as irritated as it is... the surgeon would probably want to do something else first to take away some of the swelling and irritation... so we're going to be setting up a series of up to three shots to see if they will take away some (or most) of the pain... then he asked how my pain meds were working... i said, well, they really don't seem to be helping... his reply was that he didn't think so from the looks of my mri & xrays... so he put me on morphine patches (duragesic) until we can get the back calmed down a bit... i've been on the patches before and didn't have any problems with them... i haven't seemed to have any problems with these either... besides the irritability... but, i think that all opiods will cause irritability in me... each patch works for 72 hours.... then you take that one off and slap another one on.... :) the patches are working better than the pills though and right now i'll take whatever works!! he said that he thinks that the reason i keep having such bad headaches is because i have no curve in my neck.... i've done a little researching on this and everything that i've seen seems to link no neck curve to bad headaches... very interesting....
thursday- i went and signed the papers for my car... r went and signed them on friday... the '03 white passat i blogged about last time is mine!! his name is phoenix... and i love him!! he is so nice!!! don't worry, pics are coming soon!! they detailed my car for me yesterday so he looks really good today!!
friday- r's 33rd birthday... i went out to eat with jw and her family (r was working)... we went to the restaurant and then jw and i went and got a pedicure!! that was the first real pedicure i've ever had and i loved it!!! i really enjoy hanging out with jw and her family... they are so much fun!! and get this, i love her kids... they are so fun!!! (and that is scary to me!!) but yeah, they are so much fun...
saturday- i worked... r decided (at the last minute) to close on saturday, just because he didn't want to work, and that was a hot button for me... i'm over it now but it was just the whole situation that pissed me off, not just the fact that he wasn't working... i'm not going to get into it because i don't want to dredge it all up again... let bygones be bygones.... when i got off work kb and her husband were in town... it was really good to see them because r and i hadn't seen them or hung out with them in forever!!! it's always nice to see old friends!!! i just feel kinda bad because i wasn't in the best mood though... i was tired, in pain, and upset (at r).... kb did bring me a beautiful present though!!! her name is goldie and she is a "porch kitty"... a statue... i'll have to post a pic of her!!!
oh yeah, ewok is pregnant!!! yes she is, i know, i know!! kb pointed that out on saturday!!! ewok is so tiny too!!! bless her heart!!! i feel for her!!! poor little kitty momma!!!
sunday- worked on the weekly numbers and payroll.... watched the race... carl came in 14th (i think).... sunday was productive but not as productive as i hoped it would be... that's ok though... i have another one coming up!!!
i'm not sure if my work will be open on friday.... my boss, t, is a devout catholic and we usually try to close for good friday unless production is way backed up or something... i'm pretty confident that we won't work or if we do work it will just be a half day... i've already talked to km and they said that if i'm not working here i'll go over there and work... which would be nice, maybe i could kinda get caught up over there... even though there will be no real catching up until tax season is over!! :)
saturday night after i get off work r and i are going to go look for a tv... the one in the living room is small... i say small, it's not that small, but it's just not big! so we're going to go look for a big tv.... that's r's birthday present.... we're getting a new tv!!! i'm really excited about it too!!! now we'll have an awesome tv to go with our awesome surround sound so that now when we watch the race it'll be way more excellent!! i feel like there was about a million more things i was going to blog about but of course they all left me when i actually started blogging... anywho, instead of working on reconciling the restaurant's checking account, i thought i'd blog... i feel better and i'm so glad i got to blog!!! i miss it!! more soon!!!