On My Mind

i have so many things on my mind right now it's not even funny... so many different random things... i don't even know where to begin... it seems that when i have a lot on my mind i want to blog, a lot... all i want to do is blog.... i think it helps to get the "clutter" out of my head...
r and i had a really good sunday, the "talk" included... it was one of the best days that we've had together in a while... i really enjoyed it.. we laughed, cut up, it was nice... even got a package packed and a shipping label printed so i can drop it at the post office tomorrow.... one of our ebay items... YEAH!! i just hope things keep selling!! extra money will be nice!! the restaurant has been busier!! a lot busier!! r and his head "evening" cook took inventory on saturday... i've got to get prices in there so we can see what our most expensive and inexpensive items are... we're going to re-work the menu, raise and lower a few prices, not much though... cut out some items, add others in... our morning waitress called saturday and told r that she has heard, from several different people, that one of our competitors is getting really nervous and is really thinking he is going to have to close... that would really leave only one "real" competitor.... that's great news for us... it kinda makes me feel bad but business is business i suppose....
r went to vacuum tonight and when he unplugged my phone charger i noticed that for some reason my phone was dead... it had been charging (or so i thought) since last night... um, someone, mazzy, chewed thru my charger cord... r has already had to splice it back together about 3 or 4 other times because of her... i don't know if it's going to last much longer... needless to say, my phone is now charging... i just hope one day one of the kitties don't chew on the wrong thing!!! mazzy is sleeping on my lap right now... so precious, even though she's a little devil sometimes... hehe... her and murph have been too cute this weekend...
even though r and i have been having a really good day i can't seem to quit thinking about my dream last night... wondering, should i call him? is that even a good idea? why do i want to talk to him so bad?? (if i do get christmas cards- going to try to do that tomorrow night- i was thinking about sending him one)... they say that when you think about someone you haven't thought about in a while it means that they're thinking about you... i feel guilty but at the same time, we were just friends... well, for the most part... sometimes, on occasion, more, but for the most part, just friends... during the day i've also thought about what i've heard from different people... things that we said to one another... different various random things just seem to pop in and out of my head... i don't know if it's "normal" to wonder where you would be in life now had you made different choices? looking back, man, there were so many different roads i could have taken... i'm not so sure what's going on with me and my mind right now... why i'm thinking and feeling what i am... i know it's only been a week since i started my new meds... dr. b said that i could potentially start to feel them in a week or so... i don't know if this is me feeling them or what?!?! i've been really emotional though, crying... stupid things like commercials or something that happens in a show... nothing "important" i should say... i just feel like, damn, what is wrong with me?!!? am i abnormal??? what is my problem?? am i just looking for trouble once things seem to settle down and go good?!?! i sure wish i had some answers...