All I Can Do Is Sigh

It’s so hard to believe that after such a most excellent wonderful weekend Monday can be so damn challenging… this weekend was so great, well, except for me getting irritated with r on Saturday up at the restaurant… other than that, it was a really good weekend…. we got to hang out with our friends b&k from dallas… we hadn’t seen them in about a month and this weekend we just got to relax and chill… just what we needed!! B helped r and daddy, more like, b & daddy, put the window unit in the restaurant, and r kinda just did whatever… the old one was in such bad shape and was not even working… it had masking tape on it, not even duct tape… ghetto!!
I should have known that because the weekend was so good I’d be paying for it this week… r was in a foul mood this morning… I guess I should just get used to his attitude being, Monday thru Saturday afternoon- foul & pretty much treating me or acting like I’m invisible… Saturday afternoon and Sunday- great, just like the “old” r, well, this weekend anyways…
Ever since labor day weekend, my car has had this really bad smell in it… I had some metal decorations for the restaurant in it and I thought that maybe they were causing the smell…. Nope, that wasn’t the case… so my car’s been stinking since then…. It has been raining since Saturday night… I got in my car this morning to go to work, was backing out of the driveway, and was like, is that water I hear? I turned around and the passenger door behind the drivers seat was leaking water like crazy… ok, more like water was just running in…. excellent… well, at least now I know why my car has been smelling moldy… my father-in-law came and picked my car up this morning to see if he can figure out what’s going on…. karma, huh… I guess that’s what I get for laughing at my co-worker and the ceiling in his office… I have absolutely no idea how we’re going to pay for this though… most excellent…
The next challenge… our ex-waitress, the one whole stole all the money but we can’t prove it was her but we know it was, has filed unemployment… the workforce commission called r this morning to see if we wanted to respond to her claim… um, we never got anything… something is going on with our mail up there… I dunno what it is but we’re not getting all of it… that’s another challenge to deal with… (r’s mom sent us a gift that really helped us out… ok, we would be way overdrawn in our business checking account if she hadn’t sent us the gift… back to the story)… so r calls me to tell me that the unemployment people called… she’s going to fax me the information… she said that she is filing because we fired her for her “health reasons”…. Um, no, more like she had stolen $5,500 from us and pretty much decided to quit showing up to work… reliability was a big issue for us with her… she is a good scam artist though… I’ll give her that… I am just praying that she doesn’t get this unemployment… I have no idea if we pay her or if the state does but if we have to pay her I dunno what we’re going to do… I suppose we’ll get it all figured out though…
They say that the universe never gives us more than we can handle at any one time and that everything that we need in this moment we have…. I am trying my best not to freak out and lose it… I am trying, I am trying, I am trying… damn, it’s so hard… I’m getting so frustrated but trying to keep my attitude positive… it’s really hard but I’m trying… and I guess that’s all I can do… ah, the joys of being an entrepreneur… I hate to even say this or admit it but sometimes I wonder if we’re going to make this work… when we were just talking about it and going thru the process I had no doubt in my mind that we could make it work… I can honestly say that buying the restaurant was the one thing that I have gone into with 100% knowing that it would be a success… I know we can still make it a success we just have to overcome these challenges… which just seem to be coming from every direction!! That’s ok though, what doesn’t kill us just makes us stronger…. We should be pretty damn strong after all this!