Shout Out!

I have to send a "Shout Out" to Carl!!! He won Texas this weekend!!! YAY!!! His 3rd win so far this year!!! So here are a few pictures for you to enjoy celebrating his win!!! NASCARL!!!

The Craziness Continues...

This is going to be another random post… jumping from here to there… ranting, raving, crying… who knows what all it will encompass…
Lately I spend all of my time working… I have four jobs… yes, some of them are “seasonal” but right now I’m working 4 jobs… my job at WMP, taking care of the Cedar Tree stuff, bookkeeping for km and co-workers, and tax time… I do miss having free time but I know that I won’t be working this hard for too much longer… tax season round 1 is over in a month and a half… speaking of taxes, I really need to finish getting our stuff together so we can file… I’m so close to being done but there is so much to get together this year I’m a little overwhelmed… I’ll get it taken care of though… hopefully this week…
GOOD NEWS: Carl won the race in Las Vegas yesterday… Race 3 of the year and he’s won the last 2!!!! I worked while we watched the race yesterday… it was a really good race too!!! he had an issue during post-race inspection so we’ll have to wait and see what the outcome of that is… but he did win!!! So far it’s looking like a good season for Carl and the #99 team!!!
“Real” Life:
This morning I had an appt with my psychiatrist… this was one of those times I didn’t want to go because I knew he was going to upset me… (I think if I phrase it like this it makes me feel better- I was already upset I just knew he was going to ask questions and then I’d have to talk about everything and get even more upset but that’s just part of it)… I do love my head shrinker dr though… he is really awesome… so we’re changing my meds up… increasing the dosage on two of the billion I take…
I’ve been super emotional lately… some of the blurbs I mentioned two blogs ago are really appropriate… being angry, waking up depressed, thinking my life is shitty, and so on… I feel I have been trying to do everything in my power to stay positive and to keep an upbeat attitude but I feel like it’s not working… I’m tired, worn out, and have no motivation… trying to get myself to do anything is a battle… I’ve been taking everything super personally…. Needless to say I’ve been an emotional wreck lately… so this morning at the dr I didn’t even bring up the fact that I’ve been thinking about babies… if I can’t even keep myself in check and in control how am I going to take care of someone else?!? I go back in two weeks though to see how the med adjustment is doing…
I've also been eating like crazy... like there's no tomorrow... besides trying to shut everyone out, I think this is my way of trying to deal with everything, to just eat... I bought a pair of jeans maybe three weeks ago and they are already getting way too tight!!! I hate this and I have to do something about it but it seems that all I can think about is food...
The weather here has been absolutely nuts for several weeks… yesterday it was 82, today we have a chance of snow- up to 3” (with a high of 40- that was this morning when I woke up)… and tomorrow it’s supposed to be in the 60’s… maybe that’s why everyone is still sick and can’t get over this crap that’s going around… I’ve been battling the flu/sinus nastiness for the 2nd time… R has it for the first time, still, and can’t shake it… he’s been thru one round of antibiotics and he’s still sick… it seems that almost everyone is sick with this stuff and it lingers… once you get it you can’t get rid of it…
One final rant before I go… I try so hard to be a nice person and to help anyone out when I can… it seems that the more and more you try to help certain people the more and more they take advantage of your niceness… then they expect you to do everything for them all the time… like I don’t have enough of my own stuff to do and take care of… I’m not saying I mind helping people out or mind doing stuff for people it just frustrates me to no end that people take advantage of your niceness…
Today I’m grateful for my psychiatrist and my wonderful understanding willing-to-put-up-with me and all my craziness husband…

Carl (NASCAR)

I wore my Carl Edwards shirt to work today to support him since the race was rained out yesterday... the only gripe I have is not being able to see him so his flip since I was working... he won though!!! way to start the season off!!!!
Go Carl Go!!!!

Edwards outduels reigning Cup champ in Calif.

This describes exactly how I feel about Mondays…
R and I had a good weekend… Saturday we packed, cleaned, and he moved furniture… we worked and worked and worked… the house looks so much different… I just hope something happens soon… the new furniture arrangement in the living room isn’t near as comfortable as the old arrangement was… but now we have a better “flow” thru the living room… the open house was a success… our realtor said we had 4 different groups of people show up and each group had at least 3 or more people in it… so that’s always good!! One guy wanted to make an offer but he hadn’t been pre-approved at the bank yet so our realtor took him a loan app from the bank… I’ve got my fingers crossed… at least R and I know that we have done all we can and we did the best we could… we de-cluttered, moved furniture, and cleaned up… maybe something will happen soon…
Daylight savings time… I love it when we “fall back” an hour… it’s much easier for me to get out of bed when the sun’s up… and I love it getting dark earlier… especially when it’s really cold… but man, when the time first changes it takes me a while to get used to it… the kitties too… now I’m hungry at the “wrong times”… my sleep pattern is all crazy… and the kitties, besides them always being crazy, they’re crazier and now their meal times have changed… which only adds to the craziness!!! But we’ll get it all worked out!!
Yesterday was the race at TMS- Texas Motor Speedway… km, her husband, her sister and her husband, and others all go down and camp out… that has to be awesome!!! But the stands hold right around 200,000 people and that’s a whole lot of people!!! They said yesterday that you could fit 52 Texas Stadiums (where the Cowboys play) inside just the infield of the track!!!! Woah!!! That is huge and that is a lot of people… anyways, Carl sucked it up… bad… he had a problem from almost the beginning of the race and they didn’t get it fixed until it was too late for him to recover… there are only 2 races left and it doesn’t really look good for Carl winning the Cup Championship… although he did clench the Busch series Championship this weekend… very nice!!! Way to go Carl!!!
I’m starting to have second thoughts about going to Port Aransas this weekend… things have been pretty good between R and I lately… we had a really good weekend… and as corny as this sounds, I already miss him and I’m not even gone… the only time we’ve spent nights apart (since we met) was the night of our bachelor/ette parties and then when I was in Plano for my back surgery… plus I’ll miss the kitties like crazy!!! I’m not a big being-away-from-home person… I’m very much a homebody (read: more like a socio-phobe)… anyways, right now I’m really not wanting to go… I know it would be really good for me to go and get away but we’ll see what happens… plus, I feel bad leaving R here by himself… I know, I know… what is wrong with me?!?!
The price increase at the restaurant really seems to have helped, so far anyways… now it seems like our main problem is finding a waitress to work from 11-4… I thought that would be one of the easiest slots to fill… apparently I was wrong… last week we didn’t have an 11-4 waitress and right now we’re not sure if we’re going to have one today or what… it seems like it’s always something…
I suppose we’ll just have to see what happens and what this week brings… (hopefully this week is better than last)…

Work, "Concrete" Carl, & the House

Things are good… things have been good… (I think I just didn’t realize that because I was stressing myself out!) believe it or not, I am excited to be back at work… work is good… people missed me… I was welcomed back with nothing but nice things being said and lots of hugs… I realized today that I do like working… more like, I like what I do… is it what I would like to do for the rest of my life? I’m not sure but I am confident that if a change is supposed to be made it will happen…
Concrete Carl… that’s Carl’s nickname because he’s been kicking a$$ on the concrete tracks this year!! He won Sunday’s race but I just found out that he was penalized 25 points for his car failing post-race inspection… these 25 points could be a big deal because I think there are only 28 points difference between first place and sixth place… Carl was in 3rd place (overall in the chase) and since he was penalized he’s dropped to sixth… that’s ok though… he’s sweeping the Busch series and I’m hoping he will win the Cup series too… he’ll be the only driver (so far) to have swept both in the same year!! So… Go Carl Go!!! There are seven races left for him to take it all!!
The house is going good… we had two showings the day it listed, another showing yesterday, and then one tonight… the couple that looked yesterday is the same couple that looked on the first day so that is excellent news!!! I’m still looking for a house… nothing new seems to be popping up on the market but that’s ok, I’m still looking… and like I said earlier, it will happen when it’s supposed too…
Also, I’m reading a new Wayne Dyer book… Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life… it’s his “translation and application” of the Tao and putting it to work in your life… I am a big fan of Dyer’s… all of his books that I’ve read have been excellent… anyways, I’m working on “increasing the peace” inside myself… today is the first day I’ve actually had a chance to dive into the book but so far so good… I’ll keep you posted…

here's a link to ReMax's website with our house on it... i figure if anyone is crazy enough to "stalk" me they'll be in for a real treat when they realize how nuts i am... hehe
http://remaxwf.com/details.asp?mlsnumber=101776

Carl Crazy!!

so, Carl is locked into the Chase for the Cup!!! YEAH!!! the next/last ten races will determine the Champion!! anyways, with the exception of this last week (engine failure, not his fault) he has been running great!! there are times when i wished in a big city, just because big special events come there! (manny, you are so lucky!!!) get this:



NASCAR's twelve Chase drivers in 2007 will appear at the ESPN Zone in Times Square, 1472 Broadway, Corner of 42nd and Broadway in Times Square, NYC, NY on Thursday, Sept. 13, from 12:00 - 2:30pm/et to take part in an interactive Q&A with fans and kick off the 2007 Chase for the Nextel Cup. The Chase, with the first race on September 16 at New Hampshire International Speedway in Loudon, is NASCAR's post-season playoff where the top-twelve drivers in the points standings after the first 26 races shoot it out over the last ten races for the honor of being the 2007 Nextel Cup Series Champion.

AND then they go back to ny for the championship ceremony!!! with their race cars!!! i mean, could it get any better, that would be the ultimate!!! anyways, with Carl being in the Chase i'm all over this!! and yes, he is very handsome!!! :)

this video clip is kinda long (i haven't watched anything past the first two minutes or so)... i'm just so impressed with Carl and I love his backflips when he wins!!! that's what I want to share!!!

Oh Yeah!!

oh yeah, how could i forget this!!! man, where has my brain been at lately?!?! i think it's from not using it for so long... it feels like a long time anyways!!

Carl won last week's race and in doing so secured his spot in the Chase for the Cup!!! YEAH!!! GO CARL GO!!!

**NASCARL GIRL!!**

this is Carl's quote from victory lane... how can you not like a guy like this? he's so sincere, nice, and humble even though he's a "public figure"...
“Man, this is the biggest win of my career. I can’t thank Bob Osborne enough and all my guys. My pit crew was awesome and I want to thank my fans for sticking behind us. It means a lot. Office Depot for sure. Dwight Laxton, Howard Hall, Mike Mittler – all those who helped me coming up. To win here at Bristol, I think, is everybody’s dream. I’m gonna be in Columbia tomorrow for Sam Russell, my good buddy who is injured. We’re gonna have a bicycle ride. I don’t know if this is gonna sink in. This is the night race at Bristol – 500 laps and we won it.” YOU’RE LOCKED IN THE CHASE? “Unbelievable. I am living the dream thanks to Jack Roush, Roush Fenway, Office Depot. Anybody out there who has a dream just follow it. I don’t know what to think. It was emotional to win this race. Like I said, I’ve watched this a lot. I think every short track racer out there dreams about this. My little brother is racing tonight and I know he’s watching. Mom, dad, Kenny, I love you guys and to win this race is cool. We’re back.”

Two More

i know, i know, the helmet is still there in the first pic!! i had no idea how many pics there were of him with his helmet on!! but you can still see how blue his eyes are!! :o)

I LOVE NASCARL!!

No one is perfect but 99 is close enough!!

i know, horribly horribly cheesy... could it get any worse? probably but we'll save that for another day!

More Carl Pics

Carl getting ready to race!!! how can you resist those baby blues? his eyes just sparkle!!! i just had to share!!

Daytona

sorry, this whole post is all nascar... just wanted to give you a heads up.... :o)

the nascar cup race was last night and i must say that it was an excellent race... very good to watch!! a photo finish... and i must say that carl's teammate (jamie) wouldn't have won the race if carl and his other teammate, greg biffle- who r roots for, hadn't pushed him... racing at daytona is fun to watch though... you have to bump draft and it is so exciting!! anyways, several of the guys in the race to the chase had a bad night...carl got 4th and moved up one spot in the chase... he's now in 6th!!! we're having such a good year!! anyways, last night was a good race! carl did excellent and the roush guys did a really good job working as a team!!

on a different note, sorta, roush racing has also teamed up with fenway (boston red sox)... i got to watch carl throw out the first pitch the other night... this is such a good pic of the roush guys.... this next week we'll be racing at chicagoland!! i can't wait!!!

Carl's Quotes

"I learned through trial and a lot of error that you can't make things happen faster than they're going to happen, you can only do the best job you can," he said.

"...That's the key is keep moving forward, not falling behind and digging yourself in a deeper hole, and that's been a good deal."

Edwards has learned to do the best that he can — and to let that be enough.

it sounds like i need to take some lessons from carl... (he was a teacher while he was looking for a ride.. hehe)

I LOVE NASCARL!!!

How Could I Forget This?!?!

in the midst of all my negativity and feeling sorry for myself, i completely forgot that carl edwards, my nascar driver, won last sunday's race (father's day sunday).... i was looking for a new pic to put on my desktop and what better than to put a pic of my smoking hot race car driver... and he's having such a good year this year!! anyways, if you're interested there is a very good article you can find here about carl... (i found it touching, but i've also been very emotional lately)...
Carl Edwards ends 52-race losing streak on Father's Day

Mmmmmm!!!!

i mean, no words needed but ouch!! he is hot!! that is my man, carl edwards, #99 driver for the nascar nextel cup... hey baby... hehe
km, her husband, km's sister and her sister's husband, plus about 20 people all go down to texas motorspeedway every year to watch the races... we at tms are lucky enough to have 2 races here each season!!! one is a chase race!! km and the rest all went, camped out for about a week, and had an absolute blast!! man, i would love to do that but more than that, i would love to go to a race- well, a whole race weekend, the truck, busch, and cup races... it really is do-able too!!! dang, that would be so awesome!! maybe we can try to make the november race (that's the chase race!!)... hopefully it'll be an excellent year and that would happen!!! and oh yeah, if we go i am going to have to see carl in person!!! he's your small town boy who grew up racing, southern, just basically a "good 'ol boy"..... and he also has a huge gorgeous smile (i love it) and blue eyes!! and a great attitude (i'm trying to learn from him!!)!!! he also, has a killer backflip!!! oh yeah, i am now officially an "edhead"... yeah!!! a carl edwards fan!!!
2005, which should have really been his rookie year (but he ran more than 7 races in 2004) kicked ass and took names... he came in 3rd in the chase... i mean dang!!! talk about impressive... but that's ok.... 2005 was great, 2006 was ok- lots of bad luck (and you really can have bad luck in nascar)... but 2007 is going to be an excellent year for carl!! he's going to make the chase and kick some ass!!! i have nascar fever bad!!!! i am working on getting a countdown to daytona on my blog... WOOHOO!!!!!!!

ok, just a few more pics.... the backflip pic is at atlanta in 2005....